life sucks and you die

2012-01-31T22:54:00.002+08:00

迟来的2012篇

茶包这个衰婆笑一笑

大家龙年开年笑呵呵

真傻婆一个

2011-10-22T03:14:00.002+08:00

这个傻婆，平时疯疯癫癫的，有得吃有得玩就开心得嘴巴开大大的笑。

可惜最近一直下雨，早上下到晚上，不然就是工作、上课时间的时候就天阴阴，等人家放血、放工的时候就开始下雨。。这个傻婆好几天没得出门去做八婆，闷在家里一直哭。

其实她是要去找隔着两排屋子，住在最角落那间屋子的帅哥玩啦。。下雨天那帅哥的主人可没心情带那帅哥出来找她玩，结果从茶包变成哭包了。 =.=

还好，这个傻婆很容易满足的，买个新玩具给她就开心了一整天。

再不然就买些零食阿什么的，总之是好吃的就对了来跟她玩“影子”游戏。我做什么她就做什么，不然就是我说什么她就做什么，有得玩有得吃，还不开心得笑？

其实有能力因为简单的小事情而笑，为了简单的生活而感到开心地的确确是成长中好多人失去的。对着这个傻婆简单的思想和要求，我还能不开心的对着她一起笑吗？

2011年11月5日，茶包这个傻婆就会变一岁了。不知道成长中的她会不会像我一样因为成长而失去了了解简单生活的满足感？

心机

2011-10-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

原谅我那沉重的心机

活了快21年了才发现原来简单的人生其实也可以有简单的快乐

目前的目标还是一样：

学习去简单地看待事情和人物

我想我可以做得更好。。

如果有能力抛开身边种种需要小心看透的心机和每句话背后的意思那就再好不过了。。

2011-10-07T02:05:00.004+08:00

这家伙在我家呆了将近两个月后，终于有好心人肯给她一个家了。前阵子才见过它，看起来开朗了许多，真替它感到高兴。。虽然心里蛮想念乖巧的她。

上面那家伙离开后不久下面这两个家伙就陆续的到我家来避难。

那白白胖胖的小子很幸运的在一个月内找到一个永久的家。

临走前在诊所拍的照片，看它那衰样。。。不知情的人还真的会被它骗了。它在我家的一个月不但每天都大吵大闹，还给我天天上映小狗欺负大狗的场面。受害者是谁？不难猜啦，不就是平日在家天不怕地不怕的茶包咯，哪里知道就栽在这个小胖子的嘴下。

三狗合影来个Happy Tree Friend

中间那个不在了，剩下左边那个呆头呆脑的家伙还在找家。。

冷血

2011-08-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

疯狂起来连自己都可以杀掉

你说，我还有什么做不出来？

药罐

2011-07-18T13:56:00.006+08:00

大概两个星期以前的一个早上茶包和我如常地去做早晨运动。在我们回家的路途中有个鲁莽的司机从后边撞了过来，我人没事只是轻微的擦伤，而茶包就因为当天早上出门的时候坚持走在靠外边（平时都是我走靠外，她靠里边）被车撞到失去平衡，冲击力让茶包向前冲去，差点掉进沟渠。闯祸了的司机不但没有停下车出来看看有没有撞伤人，而是飞快地离开现场。我也因为来不及反应过来没有留意到车牌号码，只是记得是一辆蓝色的proton wira，司机是女的。

当天早上因为公司还有重要的会议，我把茶包安顿在好心的邻居家。虽然说被车撞后茶包的后腿除了有点肿，她还能够如常地蹦蹦跳跳，回到家还很开心的冲到她的床位去把心爱的玩具拿出来要人陪她玩，但是为了安全起见我还是致电给她的医生安排她接受检查。离开去工作前还再三叮咛即将要来接茶包的医护人员务必要小心，因为茶包不信任陌生人，她会害怕会挣扎也会攻击企图抓她的陌生人。

医生检查后亲自致电给我解释茶包的情况，除了脚部轻微擦伤以外一般上都没什么问题，但是为了安全起见还是要我留意茶包一个星期，万一有内伤还是什么的通常都是在那一个星期内出现症状。我也照着医生的指示把茶包关在家里观察，平时的早晚户外运动也改成早晚户内运动。一个星期后，茶包没事如常地蹦蹦跳跳，还是那么贪吃。

可是上个星期一茶包就出现了打喷嚏、咳嗽、呕吐、呼吸困难的症状。那时候我晚上放工回家发现时就飞快地联络她的医安排紧急挂号，经过检查把车祸后遗症给排除后，诊断出来的是因为天气太冷肺腑轻微感染，又是吃药的时期。。药吃了，喷嚏、呼吸困难没有了，咳嗽也减少很多，前几天也没有呕吐了，可是今天早上起床看见茶包的床外满地都是呕吐出来的黄色液体，又是一个向医院跑得日子。。

好忙，好累

忙工作、忙茶包的事，少上来了。。

希望茶包快点好起来

因为我找不到另一个更好的理由去希望隔天还有机会挣开眼睛、继续呼吸。

活着，其实也需要一个理由和勇气。

二手衣裤。。

2011-07-16T01:24:00.003+08:00

表情多多的茶包。。

大家自己看照片。。

我要玩。。陪我玩嘛。。

你为什么不陪我玩？？为什么？？

咦，你手上拿着的是什么咚咚？？

我不喜欢穿衣服。。

你要我怎么做才肯让我把衣服脱下来？？

话说雪隆区这几天都天阴阴的，到了晚上就冷得不得了。茶包也因为天气冷的关系感冒了两天就导致肺部轻微的发炎了。七月份才刚开始不久我的钱包就为了茶包的医疗费大出血了，妈妈看了也不知道是心痛茶包饱受病痛的折磨还是心痛我辛苦赚来的血汗钱就这样供奉给茶包的医疗费用，不知道从哪里找到了一小袋以前我和哥哥小时候穿的睡衣裤，也找到了我曾经心爱的外套。就这样，我曾经心爱的外套就成了茶包的外套，而那些一套套的睡衣就进了洗衣机，估计在洗干净晒干后将会成为茶包的睡衣。。

妈妈问好不好看。我不喜欢茶包穿我曾经心爱的外套，所以打死嘴巴都会说不好看！你们怎么说？

痛

2011-06-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

还需要些时间让自己恢复原形

其实也不肯定能不能够恢复

恢复了自我却失去了自己的灵魂

行尸走肉的过日子还是最好不过

I just shut everything away, again, so that I won't feel the pain anymore.

还是海外的月亮比较远

2011-06-20T00:15:00.004+08:00

自我消失了一个星期，不是看不开去自杀了而是看得太开去了东马玩。

一个星期里在东马吃、住、玩、用等，花费（不包括来回机票）八百大元左右，虽然还可以消费得更经济的，只不过难敌家里两位太后的谕旨，大买特买当地土产之下就不小心用多了几百零吉。。

详细的，等我修养回原形的时候再写了。

Empty space for my empty soul

2011-06-08T00:29:00.005+08:00

Shhh....

Listen...

Listen carefully...

Can you hear that?

Guess not.

You're right, it's empty again.

You're damn right, I am on my own again.

Thank you for throwing me down on the hard concrete again, just like the other time you left the kiddy me.

I'm glad I can still put on my mask and cry without being noticed.

2011-06-06T22:42:00.003+08:00

I guess it's just me being stupid.

Now you may have your way, do anything you want.

I don't care

and not wanting to care anymore.

太空船

2011-05-31T00:14:00.005+08:00

作天是茶包结扎手术后的第十天。本来应该是今天去拆线的，可惜三天前发生了可以吓死虫的事情，必须等多两天才能够带这个傻婆去拆线。

三天前晚上九点左右，我哥哥和弟弟到附近的商店买些隔天一大早需要用的东西。茶包这个傻婆见到我弟弟上车就非常自恋的以为凭着自己那黑黑的肤色就可以瞒过大家的双眼企图爬进车内跟我弟弟一起去逛街、游车河。。结果悲剧就发生了-她被我弟弟拒绝了。

心碎满地的茶包为了发泄心理的不平衡，发狂式的在院子里奔跑！跑啊跑，跑啊跑，越跑就越快，越跑就越激动，这样连续跑了大概两分钟左右，我和弟弟联手用一张网（羽毛球用的那种）把她给围起来，这样才勉强让她停下。

为她检查的时候正如我担心的，伤口的角落裂了一点点，虽然只有有2到3mm那样但是因为出血，当晚紧急送院检查以防细菌感染- 那时候已经九点半了。送到平日看的那家医院，还好为茶包动手术的医生有在，登记后不久医生就来为茶包检查。哪里知道这个傻婆竟然那么记仇，可能生气那位医生在她两周大的时候剃了她背后的毛，也可能是因为不喜欢那位医生的关系，不但像个泼妇一样在那里大吵大闹，没办法咯，大家联手为她戴上嘴套（茶包阿，茶包，你自找的）。检查后医生认为没有必要再缝多一次针，只需要保持清洁和搽消毒药就行了；茶包也镇定下来了。。如果你以为事情就这样结束就错了。

Surprisingly，检查完毕后茶包竟然非常热情地去舔那个医生的脸然后讨抱抱！ 0_0 *我就知道没好事会发生！* 结果当那个医生抱起茶包这个傻婆的时候。。她竟然在医生的身上撒尿！！！

>.<！！！

那医生也不是省油的灯，临时决定让茶包成为太空狗，特别送她一个太空船（公报私仇还是以德报怨？？），就这样茶包的太空旅途开始了。。

无执照，驾着太空船到处乱撞的太空狗- 茶包公主

结扎

2011-05-20T21:54:00.003+08:00

昨天把茶包送去作结扎手术了，既然那漂亮的医生小姐建议让我把留院观察一个晚上，心里千万个不愿意也得狠下心来。还好手术后光明正大的跑去它的病房里偷看它没被发现，因为麻醉药效还没过，茶包睡得像个睡美人那样。不过还是不放心，离开前在它耳边说了些悄悄话，结果被那个医生见到，竟然站在那里傻笑。 =.= *人家从来没有让它自己一个在外过夜嘛。。更何况还是在第一次动手术*

今天下午一睡醒，连衣服都没换就匆匆的去接我这个神经过敏的小公主。结果茶包一见到我的出现就是发脾气！>.< *茶包阿茶包，你知道我整个晚上都在担心你吗？竟敢发我的脾气！* 办好出院的手续后神经质的茶包摆出一副很可怜很忧郁的样子，她大概以为我不要她了吧？*哇哈哈，不过说实在的，我哪会那么狠心咧？*

没办法咯，带她跑去隔壁的宠物店买了好多新玩具和零食，神经质的小茶包才给我一个笑脸。真是吓死虫啊！就这样，手术费+住院费，加上买零食、玩具和其他小物件的费用，两百五十大洋就这样飞走了。不过往好的方面想，茶包日后患上癌症、细菌感染的风险大大降低，有一个更健康的身体也不怕增加更多无辜的小狗来这个世界受苦，这笔钱我花得安心。

接下来几天里只是需要关注茶包伤口的复原，只要没细菌感染，两个星期后她就可以恢复蹦蹦跳跳、疯疯癫癫的生活了。

倒数的日子。。

2011-05-04T04:23:00.003+08:00

离开thesis deadline还有1天，我暂时还不想交上去。没什么特别的原因，总觉得做得不够好，还有地方可以改进可是却不知道哪里可以再改。

离开考试还有8天，还是不想正式的拿起书本闭关洗脑。原因？第一张paper就是我最讨厌的criminal law，越读那些所谓的大法官提供的judgement就觉得其实聪明的人为了显示自己的特出往往让自己就变得更加愚钝。简单、直接的东西已经确确实实的记载在条例里边，却因为两个小笨蛋律师在他们面辩护的时候让堂堂好几个大法官头脑变得不清醒，说话越说越模糊结果简单的事情却变得复杂去。。可怜做学生的我们必须让自己的脑袋去受罪。

不过回想起来，现实生活中不也这样吗？人越长越大就理当越有智慧，往往却因为为了显示自己的智慧、逃避责任去扭曲事实，结果连小孩都明白的东西大人们却在那里争执什么才是对的。

真可悲。。

2011-04-30T03:50:00.004+08:00

I'm ok

Just a little

Lost

Helpless

Confused

Disappointed

Depressed

That's all

Sorry I got you worried

Love you all

珍惜

2011-04-02T01:36:00.004+08:00

失去了才懂得珍惜。

人，就是那么贱。

只是没想到，狗，也是那么贱。。

幸好我不是人

生活

2011-03-21T03:59:00.002+08:00

一个字

忙

还有一个月半就考试了，赶功课、做research papers、作练习。

生活方面，没什么改变，一切还是靠自己比较实际。

家里又多了一个小瓜，很会闹，幸好是暂时性的；本来是拿来跟Brownie做伴的，只是没想到Brownie会离家出走。。

事业嘛。。没什么去理，大不了这两个月里省着点用，少赚点无所谓；时间拿来准备考试比较实际。

至于即将来临的election，我想今年应该不参与了。有点讨厌没脑袋的人说愚蠢的话，幸好不是关系到国家事务，不然不知道会不会像咱们那所谓的第一夫人那样被人民拿来当笑话。呵呵呵~

非常期待考完试后去东马旅行的计划 ^^ 年未打算上北走，至于地点就看看到时候能够抽多少天出来玩。

Revenge

2011-03-10T23:21:00.003+08:00

The best way to get rid of an annoying opponent?

Give 'em anything and everything they asked for.

It's the art of destruction ;)

法律援助基金會

2011-02-28T04:13:00.004+08:00

“政府上星期宣佈撥款500萬令吉，以成立全國法律援助基金會，為年收入2萬5千令吉以下的國民提供法律援助。基金會是由政府與律師公會合作設立，並由總檢察長阿都干尼為首，其他董事局成員包括律師公會等12人，運作經費來自政府、律師公會和私人企業。” - 星洲日报

More news on Legal Aid Funds: click here

早前在某报的新闻栏里读过有关我国的民事司法会有一连串类似在1998年英国的Lord Woolf Reform in Civil Justice System。现在就成立一个法律援助基金會并公开给大众（之前的援助基金只提供给已经在magistrate court里认罪了的嫌疑犯），这些的确是件好事。对大马低收入的人民更是件值得庆幸的事情。可是整个援助基金會的application、review、approval和资金到底是以什么样的方式来分配 ( can transparency and accountability be ensured??)？民事、回教和刑事案的资金分配什么比率？这几样对于昂贵的legal fees和有限的基金是最基本也是最重要的一点，希望有关当局能够尽快公布/解答好让大马人民有更一步的了解。

不过话说回来，提供了资金给大众法庭里需要处理的案件就会增加，到时候会不会变成一个简单的claim需要花上十年、十五年；复杂的可能二三十年（毕竟现在的速度已经够慢了）？？又或者本来不需要上法庭的却抱着不拿白不拿的心态硬硬要上庭才甘愿。。（其实很多小case只需要去tribunal或者是mediation就行了，不过很多人都以上法庭才够rasa的心态来看待事情，这也是其中一个contribution to backlog of cases）结果到最后大家都埋怨怎么法庭处理简单的案件需要那么久的时间却看不到这里一点小cases，那里一点小cases，加上偶尔有较严重或复杂的案件要处理，东加西加突然文件就堆到一座山那么高了。。=.="

还是那一句：“Justice must not only be done, but also undoubtedly be seen to be done”。如果人民对司法界失去了信任，再多的基金会也不能够挽回人民对这国家的司法应有的 “transparency” 抱有任何信心。It's all about public confidence.

2011-02-26T02:39:00.002+08:00

back to square one

2011-02-21T00:17:00.005+08:00

going through a tough time

lying on bed with my eyes wide open throughout the night and I can still feel the pain inside

maybe i'm not the survivor I thought I was

or maybe it's just the withdrawal symptom for what I'm suppose to let go of

forgive and forget- the universal theory to a better life

but when things got really ugly, can we really forgive and forget?

Being merciful does not necessary mean I have to forgive and forget, it can also be not taking any actions against the offending party.

I NEVER FORGIVE harms done to me and to this family NOR FORGET the pain that twist my heart inside out.

My heart still weep in my dream

Wound in my heart never heal, 'cuz you keep digging the very same sore spot where you should have leave it since you last hurt it.

How have you got the guts to pretend nothing ever happen and ordered me around, running your errands for you because your incapability in managing things effectively and efficiently had inevitably brought destructions to this home, tearing our family apart.

And now you bloody bystanders are telling me to FORGIVE AND FORGET?

OVER MY DEAD BODY!

小名？

2011-02-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

新年前后家里的这个小家伙正处于度过期-度过每日只能够在限定的时间内出来玩然后学习家规。

当然，这样的安排令这位达小姐极度的不满。我怎么知道她不满意？听她从早叫到晚，越叫就越凶，叫累了就用哭的方式，口渴了喝水后继续。。。这种表达方式虽然给附近的邻居造成不方便但我很幸运，附近的邻居要么就是早上一早出门晚上很晚才回来（通常那段时间茶包这家伙可能已经累了、睡了所以根本没有发出任何声音）；要么就是出发前往家乡了所以没人被干扰。。这种时期，我除了幸运还是幸运，因为今早前往送礼给左邻右舍提起的时候大部分都很惊讶，原来他们根本不知道我家多了茶包这个家伙。。可怜这个家伙那么努力的制造噪音却没被人发现。。呵呵呵。

虽然没干扰到附近的邻居，但每天对着这个小家伙还要听她的怨言足以让我们对她“恨之入骨”，为了报仇，我妈第一个为她取了小名- 衰婆（广东话）。就这样，其他的小名就陆续而来，其中包括“八婆”，“肥婆”，“黑婆”。。。当然，日常生活中我们还是叫她茶包（不然她不会理睬我们），私底下说她坏话的时候就衰婆前衰婆后的。。哇哈哈哈

被叫肥婆的主因。。

幸好。。吵了接近一个星期这家伙终于投降了，肯乖乖的呆在笼子里面睡觉。一日三次的自由莫过于大小便和玩。偶尔天气热的时候就让她出来在凉凉的瓦地上呆呆。

看什么看？没看过我啊？！

不过，翻回茶包小时候的照片，惊觉时间过得好快，她也长得好快。。

样子。。好大的变化。。

但是睡觉的样子还是那个睡死的样自。。

=(

2011-02-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

一段时间没上来了。不是没事写，而是不想写；写了自己又不开心，还是算了。

最近的心情很灰，这几天脑袋里有很多不好的想法。也算了。

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Respect is earned, not given. Once it's gone, it's gone, you can't force others to respect you unless you prove yourself worthy of it; the same applies to TRUST and FAITH, to all individual in my eyes.

Prove yourself worthy for there's no difference between a man and a women to me, whether you're an elder or of the younger generation, everyone is EQUAL.

凶手

2011-01-19T01:56:00.004+08:00

三个月大的她没什么，还是那么贪吃、贪玩、贪睡、三八、爱吠屋外经过的猫猫狗狗人类。

还有，喜欢趁我不在家的时候搞破坏，受害者多数就是家里的鞋子，偶尔会有花花草草的尸体躺在鞋子里面（可能犯案者以为把花花草草的尸体从案发现场移去别的地方就没人会知道谁是凶手）。新买回来不到两个星期价值接近七百零吉的dessert boot就这样死在她嘴下 T_T 事后才发现，救不回了只有草草的为这对可怜的受害者安葬在垃圾桶内，连墓壁都不需要弄。死得真冤枉。

由于不能够当场逮捕犯案者，就不能够惩罚她，但不惩罚她我心里这口气咽不下去！所以今天把这个嫌疑犯的样貌放上来让大家认着她！

嫌疑犯的正面

嫌疑犯眼咪咪的样子

嫌疑犯睡觉的样子

你这个杀鞋凶手！我认着你！

2011-01-16T04:29:00.001+08:00

又来了。

第二个星期了。

我想再这么下去我不用化妆样子很快就会像僵尸了。

羡慕那种可以一觉睡到天亮的人
=(

她走了

2011-01-15T05:37:00.003+08:00

女佣走了。她回家了。

虽然她的性格很令人讨厌，但是相处了两年说没感情是假的。

虽然她很喜欢把我刚买回家要应付一个月的干粮、食物在一个星期内给我吃完，但是吃进肚子总好过拿来丢掉来得好。

虽然她很喜欢在家里很少人的时候煮一大堆食物，尽管知道我很不喜欢有浪费食物的现象出现在我的家里，吃不完的食物还是偷偷拿来喂垃圾桶，但是她不是一个会谋算别人的东西。

可是有空的时候没人给我做奇奇怪怪的食物来品尝了。

不在家的时候没人帮我喂榴莲和茶包了。

也没人在我睡不着的时候陪我躲在黑黑的房间里看鬼戏了。

更加没人因为在看了鬼戏以后不敢一个人睡觉、一个人到黑黑的地方被我笑了。

=(

小气

2011-01-09T01:50:00.004+08:00

沉默，是我唯一能做的事。

虽然心里很介意，非常介意我很介意帮助了别人却被人家怀疑、排侧。你不了解我的心意没关系，你感受不到我心里发出的那一点点好心也不要紧，但请别学电视剧里吃饱没事做得人那样去结党营私然后处处找我麻烦么？

被冤枉，已经不是第一次了，我还是不喜欢那股滋味。别问我为什么不解释。I just don't see the point to explain。有心的，有眼的，有脑的，都会感受到、看得到、明白我的心意。否则，请别浪费大家的时间纠缠下去。真的，我并不能够像往日那么有心有力去帮助身边所有的人；我很累，肩膀上的负担很重，脚步走得很辛苦。我不想，也不要，更不需要什么解释，帮了就算了，只要问题解决了就好。

过去的几天里在工作的时候学会了让自己更加自私。抱歉，我真的没那个心情去应酬别人惹出来的麻烦，与其让别人有机会拿我来开刀，还是自私点，不给任何人任何机会把麻烦的事情推到我身上。

这个月又败家了，但值得。工作的最后一天在同一个大礼堂的书展里买了超过10本书但只花了RM110左右。虽然多半是因为情绪的不满，花钱来发泄，不过这次还算是控制得不错。我没有出手打人，也没有骂人，更没有摆臭脸给任何人看，只是静静的笑笑。啊。。希望下次可以做得连负面情绪都可以skip掉就好。^^

是的，我很小气。事情过了26个小时我还会因为别人老是质问我而感到生气。我是小气的。

新？

2011-01-02T01:55:00.002+08:00

假期，就这样过了。

问我，在过去的一年里有什么成就，大概只能够摇摇头。内心的挣扎，还是一样。

老一辈的人说像我这样处于花样年华的时候，不该自寻烦恼；可是他们却忘了很多时候我的烦恼都是他们的incapability所带来的collateral damage。

身为一家之主、丈夫、父亲，却没有尽自己的能力来完成自己应有的责任；对外人出手慷慨，吃饭喝酒都争着给钱，别人面前是个好好先生，自己家里需要的开销却处处斤斤计较，每个月给不到五百大洋却要别人想尽办法，每个月拉长补短，然后剩下的开支由我们平日投资所得的来补贴来维持这个家。别说在家乡养活皇太后一个人都不够用更何况是在城市，五百大洋要养活四个人+水电费，除了不够还是不够。

钱，已经不再是一个维持家庭和谐的工具了，不再是一个附体了。有钱也吵没钱也吵，却不看看自己本身怎么去管理自己的处事方式。我忘了多久没跟那个人伸手要钱了。二十岁的人了，老爸不给钱是天经地义的，我也不喜欢做伸手将军，但请别拿钱来侮辱我的尊严，至少你现在还没有这个资格来侮辱这个家庭里的任何一个人。我很庆幸我活过来了，至少我还活得好好的，没上课的时候去打打工，做做小买卖，不然就丢笔钱去做些短期的小投资。除了晚上那餐吃家里，住家里，用家里，其余的开销都是自己负责。我能够很高兴的说，我能够做得更好、更棒。

2011年，弟弟上初中一。我和他打成了协议，白纸黑字，以防日后有得抵赖。13岁的人能够与20岁的人达成什么协议？还不就是钱与责任。妈说我对自己的弟弟太刻薄了，但我还是保持着同一个看法，13岁的人应该能够为自己的行为负上部分的责任，至少是为自己的言行举止负责。而且我对他的要求很简单，只要不沾染烟酒、毒品和不法的勾当，每个月都会定时给他一笔钱作为酬劳。与其说是酬劳倒不如是说我在跟他做交易。反正他一直以来都渴望能够跟我去旅游，那笔钱就当作是他旅游的筹码，只要他懂得善用钱，只要在我能力以内我都愿意给他，因为他是我的弟弟，也是我唯一的弟弟。

至于我手下的两个小家伙呢，榴莲还是不喜欢“茶包”，只要“茶包”有在她就不理我（真是个醋坛子！）。而“茶包”现在从我房里搬出去屋外住了，或者更准确地说我把“茶包”安置在屋外，因为我真的很不喜欢在睡觉的时候老是被她偷吻、强吻（加上她有口臭，所以这种亲密的动作还是免了）。

2011年不管是不是一个好的年份，活着就是要为自己的目标而奋斗。我想有空的时候还是学学“茶包”的笑一笑没烦恼。

十二月[中]

2010-12-19T20:16:00.002+08:00

望着这粘人的小家伙，脑袋里一片空白。
不知道下一步该怎么走，不过既然给了它一个机会，一个希望就决定不去把那希望给毁灭。
那种失望、无助的感觉，我尝试过，不好受。
现在的我，铁石心肠？算是吧。。
不管了~

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等待，继续等待。。
等、等、等。。。
我等了十四年，还得等多久？
我不喜欢等人，更不喜欢等一个没把握会实现的承诺。
等，还得等多少年？

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疑心，说没有是假的。
疑心重，说没有肯定是假的。
我选择相信没能力背叛我的东西也不会相信身边的人。
疑心重，不是我想要的，而是这环境让我不得不去防身边所有的人。
我没能力去相信任何人，更不会把心掏出来让全世界看；
不过有一点是肯定的，要得到我的信任就必须有所付出；
而我本来就不打算去谋害任何家伙，原因很简单，我没那个闲情和时间去坐无聊的事情，
不过想找我麻烦、占我便宜的人物嘛，我却非常有兴趣去折磨这些人。
今年除掉了两个该死的东西，希望不会有第三个，因为要谋算别人还真的很费精神。

十二月，还真是个有趣的月份。

十二月

2010-12-15T22:06:00.002+08:00

这几天都在考试，考得我的脑袋快烧焦了。

十二月，曾经是我最喜欢的一个月份，我期待的不是圣诞节，也不是倒数新年，而是我妈的生日。可惜以往我都没机会跟她在她生日当天庆祝，希望今年可以做到。。

这个月发生好多事，也让我更明白这世界并没有一个完全可信赖的人。以前老师说过信任是一个asset，我赞成不过只限于theory；信任对这世界的每一个人或许是个借口，又或这是个人生理拿来做大型赌注的筹码，又或者是拿来利用别人的一个机会。从小我就知道这世界本来就很现实，只是没想到现在要防的并不只是外面的人，连身边最亲的人也不例外。

2010年的12月，我还是那么残酷，但在学院里的三年我学会了伪装，伪装成一个毫不起眼、功课平平凡凡的学生，然后在最后后一分钟把对手给一次过干掉。有人说我是个阴险的人物，我赞同，非常赞同。我说过我宁愿是我负别人，也不会让别人有机会负我；说到做到。

原谅我的无情，也原谅我的心机。生活在这种环境里要平安无事的过日子就得比别人凶狠毒辣，我受够了被人操控生活的日子。

脑残的家伙说脑残的话

2010-12-04T02:02:00.003+08:00

以前在学校的时候老师说过把贫富之间的距离拉近可以保持社会的安定。。

但把油价之间的距离拉近除了让人民的负担更重以外，对社会里的各阶层人士有什么好处？=O

A little from me, a little from her

2010-12-02T19:15:00.004+08:00

Down with flu and fever..

Blame the weather..

Here's a pic of Teh Pao taking a nap right after dinner ;)

Guess what can a 3 weeks+ old pup learn?

Pee on newspaper after a few positive encouragement =D

Now she's in the process of mastering SIT, HERE, and DOWN.. =D

两个星期里。。

2010-11-23T21:59:00.003+08:00

两个星期内私人电脑病了，进了医院，现在终于好了。
两个星期内家里多了一个成员，不但把我和弟弟的关系给拉近了，也让榴莲吃醋，不理我了。
两个星期内我房里多了好多毛发，同时也多了一个家伙陪我睡觉。
两个星期内这小家伙从手掌般大小变成一个小恶魔。
两个星期内我在邻居眼里的Soo小姐变成No小姐。
两个星期内我已经进入破产的状态。
两个星期内的变化好多。

为大家介绍这个让我在两个星期内经历一切的家伙，Teh-Pao。

思念

2010-10-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

突然好想念她

一个曾经陪伴我一段时间的她，夜里陪伴着我，听我诉苦的她。

肥妹，你过得还好吗？还是那么肥吗？还是那么喜欢强其他的仓鼠的玉米和瓜子吗？

我好想你，希望你在另一个国度快乐。

幸福

2010-10-09T05:35:00.002+08:00

能够在假日睡到自然醒
一个人躲在草场的某个角落看书
或者是跟几位在自己心目中认为重要的人在附近的草场野餐
有风的时候去放放风筝
没风的时候就赤脚在厚厚的草地上走走、跑跑
可以暂时放下手头上的工作，放下心里的压力，与家人去逛逛博物馆、图书馆、书局、或者是参观具有纪念性的地方
慢慢的享受自己喜欢的食物，不需要因为午餐时间有限而血不顾仪态、盆大口的把食物吞下去
笑是因为心里觉得快乐、高兴而不是为了应酬、为了礼貌而笑
拿起背包就可以去看世界
穿自己认为舒服的衣服而不是为某人、某事、某活动、某场合而穿
拥有属于自己的藏书天地
看书是为了想看而看，不是为了考试而逼自己去看
书看了，忘了内容可以随时随地从看，不是为了考试而逼自己去背
不需要因为要顾虑亲戚朋友、三姑六婆的感受而强颜欢笑，欢迎他们的到来（尽管自己和家人是多么的不欢迎他们）

幸福，其实可以很简单，但没了那天真的心那是多么的遥远。。

黑

2010-10-06T04:31:00.002+08:00

又回到了黑色的世界

抱着很黑的心情，看待世界黑暗的一面

想尽办法摆脱，到最后还是像一个皮球那样，滚回来

好一个恶性循环

习惯了人类黑暗的一面，只是还不能够完全的接受那是自然界里的一部分

或许。。又或许。。三五十年后，正式的在社会打拼后，自己也会变成世界黑暗的一分子？

天晓得～

Musing

2010-10-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dissapointed.

It's not the world but my very own kin that taught me the lesson of life. Safeguarding one's own interest should be the utmost priority than the rest, 'cuz the others will always eye on you, looking for every single opportunity to get near and grab something from you. I seen and I had been in that position, I knew this game, this old, familiar game. The very same game our ancestors played and now passed down to their decedents. There's no end to this game, there's no end to human's desire, there's no end in their dark and greedy heart.

My own kind, those who share the very same blood is now in the arena, playing the same bloody game. They no longer use spears and swords as their weapon, but words that pierce through one's heart and mind, sentences that kills others' souls - the ultimate weapon of all, poisonous words.

I screamed, not in fear but rage; fire of anger came out from my mouth. I'm doomed, I knew I am, 'cuz I drew attentions. One tiny mistake, one simple word - STOP, leads to another bloody fight. What's next? When will these end? How to solve the problems? Where can I seek help? If so, from whom? No answer, nobody answered, not a single voice answered. Everyone else's busy fighting, fighting for their interest, setting loose their deepest and darkest desire, losing their humanity. Massacre their humanity, a voice said; destroy them, another voice said. What am I now? No wait, whose body is that? Oh look, that's me, I'm long dead. If so, who's talking? Who else is watching the game?

The game continue...

榴莲

2010-09-29T00:09:00.003+08:00

好像很久都没提到我房里的小朋友了hor？

今天就简单得报告一下，榴莲还活着（谢天谢地），不止是活得好好的（再次谢天谢地），体重在短短的两个月里从原本的150g飙升到300g（连兽医都说她好圆 XD），还很会享受生活（吃、喝、拉、睡、玩）。从她加入我家的三个月里，这小家伙不止搭过巴士、普通火车、轻快铁、高速火车、汽车，也游览了雪州、隆市、下霹雳里的地方（有朋友说她很好命，有得去旅游）。

今天就看看榴莲的睡相。。

这是最典型的。。吃饱后睡觉的样子："Y"字型

然后翻一翻身，侧睡。。只差没给她一个抱枕而已。。

如果在她的小屋里呢，偶尔会看到这幅昏昏欲睡的样子，这个时候的睡相就是把一边的脚提起来靠在小屋的墙上。

或者。。又或者是。。没人陪她玩，发脾气后爬上别人的大腿要睡觉的时候就是这个样子。。

啊。。。*打哈欠*看到这家伙的样子我也想睡了。。bye bye。

2010-09-26T03:59:00.002+08:00

以前不开心的时候都会等到晚上然后的躲在房里咬枕头发泄；不知道多久以前开始一不开心就回去学校操步，死命操，操到自己双腿酸痛、麻木，天黑了、夜了才回家；回来后只要不开心就去放风筝，管它有没有风、天气热不热、太阳晒不晒就是需要出去喘口气，把心里不开心的一切给发泄掉。

不知道从几时开始不再去放风筝，也不再出门；呆在自己的房里觉得比较快乐、满足。不愿意踏出去，不愿意见到、听到、遇到会让自己心烦的东西；我宁愿呆在自己的安乐窝也不让人借机把心中的不满、委屈发泄在我身上，更不想因为被别人无端端大小声而让自己最黑暗的一面呈现出来。怕失去了控制就会做出恐怖的事情，怕走错了一步就不能回头，更是怕自己的那一刻心，如果还有那一点点的良知也会被心里的不甘、愤怒、委屈给毁灭掉。往往一个恶魔的诞生是一个天使的逝世，当天使的良心、理智死了以后，剩下的就只有不好的一面，这一面就是恶魔。而我的良知早就离我而去，剩下的就只有理智。

有好多事情憋在心很难受，很多时候不是不想说，只是每次才开始说就会有人很主观的批评，不然就是听也不听完就认为自己非常了解一切，不给人发表的机会就开始讲开始骂，上几代的恩怨也拿可以拿来发挥。本来还以为这种现象可能只是正对某些课题，过后才发现原来不是课题的敏感性而是个人态度的问题，没必要说的还是别说，现在干脆不用说，省事生气不用吵。

I feel so bitter inside. There is a beast in every human, and a human in every beast, it's a matter of how much humanity you have inside. Sometimes I sleep for hours, or most of the day to shut off my mind, to forget my anger, or better still, forget my evil twin before it set the beast free.

三更半夜不睡觉出来shoot人

2010-08-26T03:21:00.002+08:00

最近发生好多事

有好多话想写，却写不出来

只能说人心除了险恶，也很奸诈。

日子过得好快，考试期越来越近了，压力也越来越大。

对身边并肩作战的人很无语、无助、也很无望；对遇到困难、需要帮助的朋友爱莫能助。
同样的享有一天24小时，有的人能够把心思花在筹谋、计算，看看怎样才能够谋害他人、为自己谋财；有的人却忙到连休息的时间也不够。

很多人都说我傻，家里有产业不回去帮老爸，好让日后有个平稳的路好走；我却认为与其把自己困死在封建的行政系统、过时的管理制度下不如趁有机会、有能力的时候到外边闯闯，向别人学习和改进，搞不好还能够自己在外面闯出自己的一片天地。拥有家族产业又如何？没有恰当的管理方式加上一堆思想古老、封建又不肯听取后辈提出意见的董事就犹如等待被时间淘汰-坐以待毙，公司业绩不断下滑已经是预料中事，管理政策一天不改公司一天都不会有希望。

这次可算是出门遇贵人。帮别人打工，薪水福利方面都很不错，重要的是老板肯指导和给予学习的机会。虽然不是读商业系的，但有幸遇到好几位肯赐教的上司、老板也算不错。现在除了有活动的时候帮老板打动，自己也获得机会自己尝试做买卖，至今收获不错，虽然并不能够做大投资但日常生活上的开销还能够应付，甚至可以买书和偶尔付弟弟的一部分开销，算是不错。

至于身边的政治玩家，近期就特别喜欢搞风搞雨，可惜的是我没闲情去陪他们玩，气得他们扎扎跳。很多人都以为攻击对手就应该有所行动，反而最近我领悟到的是按兵不动也能够成为一种武器。对这种无聊的游戏我没兴趣参与，攻击他人更不在我要做的事情里面，但这并不表示我会让身边的有心人来找我的麻烦，任由这些有心人来破坏我的清静。我不出声并不代表我不知道，我不动也不代表我不会反击，做事情就必须做得有分寸，如果有天你不明不白的背人拉下马，死得不明不白的时候就别怪人下手太重，而是应该检讨一下自己做事情是不是做得太过分。

啊~太阳快出来了。出去前借这个机会送某人一句话：凡事留一步，日后好象见。希望对方做事别做得太过分，不然别怪我不留情面。

榴莲

2010-07-31T15:15:00.003+08:00

我喜欢闻新奇的味道，也喜欢研究榴莲的味道，但是不喜欢吃榴莲。两个星期前把一个家伙接回家，左看右看上看下看都像个臭榴莲（黑白的，好像臭了发霉的榴莲那样），就索性叫她榴莲！

为大家介绍我家的新成员－榴莲之榴莲

今天不多说，大家看照片就好。（最近块忙死了）

呆呆的榴莲

这家伙来我家才两个星期体重就直升１５０ｇ，这样证明了一点，什么东西来到我家都会变肥。任何瘦巴巴的家伙想增肥有不怕死的话就来吧！XD

回家

2010-07-04T19:26:00.006+08:00

有好一段日子没有正式的回到这个大家庭了，或者更加准确来说-已经有一段日子都在自我放逐。曾经是多么的辉煌，一个曾经称得上“王国”的大家庭，一个大家共同努力建造的梦想，藏着好多好多回忆。这次回来并不时留恋这往日的业绩，更不稀罕以前的成就；在眼前的就是自己的学弟学妹，每一个都是有潜质的接班人，每一个都有可能是日后大家的领袖，可惜他们缺少了两样最重要的东西-恰当的态度和精神。

今天暂且不提坏事。出席了一年一度下霹雳圣约翰救伤队的检阅典礼，只能够说今年的花样比较多，但大家注重的还是操步比赛的那环节。成绩，是我预料中的那样，只能对自己的juniors说拿个经验和教训，一个很好的教训：一分耕耘一分收获，一个队伍里边讲究的还是所有队员的出席率和合作态度，少了其中一者就等于一盘散沙。

看起来的确很齐，但是少了霸气，也许是这样所以无缘进入三强。下一届的juniors最好吸取senior的教训，明年早早就好准备了。

给今年年尾就要考SPM的你们-人生里有更多的挑战，无论你们日后是否会保持着这般无忧无虑的脑袋，还是那一句：“Life sucks and you die，记得一定要把握好机会，因为人生没有take two。

这次的出现，让很多人都很惊讶；见了好多新面孔，也遇见了不少老朋友，听了好多有根据的绯闻、政治纠纷。大家还是老样子，而我唯一不同的是。。我对这种小政治不感兴趣（要玩就玩更刺激的啦），反而对自己juniors的素质有所要求（不求你们达到能够与我切磋的地步，只求你们能够超越我）。

一向来都给人带来很恐怖的印象，出现的时候的确让好多跟我不熟的人不敢在场玩得太疯狂，认识的还是那么不知死活的跑来拍照。。

哦，对了，一年一度的售旗日已经开始了，今年的汽车(RM2)和摩多(RM1)粘子弄得这个样子。别问我怎么老是黑黑的，我不知道，毕竟不是我的杰作。

若各位在路边或是共公共场所遇到这大家庭的成员兜售粘纸和捐募，有零钱的话不妨支持支持他们，没零钱的只要别放狗咬人或态度恶劣的对待那些小弟弟、小妹妹就好了。

The world choose to turn its back to me, then let me turn the world upside down!

2010-07-01T01:25:00.003+08:00

I'm depressed. Nothing, just depressed.

Tears dropped as if I no longer in control of my own eyes, nor my mind. I'm disappointed, again.
For years I waited, I waited upon empty promises, I waited upon empty promises made by the one I used to trust and look upon as my lead examples, the one I used to admired and set as my idol, the one who was once the ultimate, the ruler of all and nothing was impossible to him; yet he failed me, with his empty promises.

I'm disappointed, greatly distressed to find out all these while I had been waiting for nothing, nothing more than mere lies and empty promises. Fourteen years, fourteen birthdays, fourteen new years I told myself it will be soon fulfilled, and we shall live together as a happy family. Now that I realise things can never be the same again, things will never be the same when he took us away from our happy place, our home, and things had never be the same ever.

It was from the very same great man I learnt the way of the world, I learnt the way to swim thorough the valley of dangers, flatters, deceit, and now one of the most important lesson ever, mercy brings nothing but disappointment.

I had been merciful, have been merciful but this world is far more greedy than what I thought I had learnt about; merciful brought me destruction at one point of time yet I manage to get up and continue my journey; mercy showed was then returned with vagueness and cruelty. What more can this damn world asked for? What more can I expect from the little hope I once had? How long had it been I last have a proper family dinner with people I loved, people I cared and people I regard as "family"? and how much lies will I have to endure from the very same man who kept me waited more than a decade for his empty promises and now turned his back against me at my request to have all his promises done? HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO WAIT?! 10 more years? 20 years? or is it forever?!!

I'm greatly distressed. I'm depressed, I've started to lost hope upon this so call "family" who bears nothing other than games of politics, lies and flatters. For I had enough!

If being merciful broughts only destructions, then let destructions bring me pride and satisfaction!

Idiotic idiots.

2010-06-26T21:32:00.001+08:00

I used to think that those who hold superior position are either wiser, more capable or have the basic necessary requirement to hold certain office/ rank, and I respected them a lot. Now I realise there are some idiots among them who lack the capability nor wits. Being an idiot is not wrong, respect will still be showed whether you are my superior or not; but being an idiot and behave like an idiot without taking others' feeling into consideration is just another thing that pissed me off.

If you pissed me off I'll screw your day.

Blood Donation Campaign in Giant Kinrara, Puchong

2010-06-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

Photo taken from here

Well, I shall maintain a balance diet and healthy lifestyle from now on until that day, I shall see how anyone will ever dare stop me from givng my blood away!! * muahahaaa*

Yesss!!! I'm obsessed with blood donations! I'm crazy for blood, more blood!!! XD

Guess I don't have to repeat the details since the poster stated everything, or ( if) the words are too fine for you to read, just drop by here. Keep up the good job and see you all there =D

"Pro Fide" ( For the Faith)
" Pro Utilitate Hominum" ( For the Service of Mankind)

失落的变态

2010-06-20T03:05:00.002+08:00

好久没捐血了，连那本小小本的红簿子都不见了（咦？！会不会是大王蛇在香港那里见到木偶手上的那本？！），难得今天星期六有机会到附近的商场逛逛，也很难得的碰到不知道那里的医院举办捐血活动就心痒痒、皮肤也痒痒跑去排队（做么排队？因为很多人咯。做么很多人？因为很多人都是好奇自己是什么血型要给人家duk一下，知道了才甘心咯，不过捐血的人很少咯。）。好不容易到我了，填了表格也无辜的被那护士先生在手指上duk了一下。。再次确定我的血型不是C、量血压然后。。。把血滴在一罐蓝色液体（其实那是什么咚咚来的？）里面，结果竟然是飘着的。T_T就这样，那里的护士先生用很兴奋的眼神看着我然后很兴奋得跟我说“抱歉，你不能捐血，下次见”！！*我顶~你做么那么兴奋？！*好不容易碰见捐血活动就这样跟它讲拜拜了，弄得我心里不平衡，回到家狂吃一顿青苹果沙拉、烤蕃茄什么的。。

呜~人家变态起来就是要看见血、闻到血的味道嘛。。>.<

请尊重我个人私隐和决定！

2010-06-17T23:07:00.004+08:00

最近正式的把小小的投资般上网络平台，把货品的照片post在facebook的photo album里，方便身边的亲戚、朋友选购。偏偏我是个很霸道的人，我的facebook不是随便add人的那种，除非我认识你或者是通过很熟的人介绍并深入的了解对方背景和人格（就是没有实际的见过面）才会破例approve你的friend request；那是要保护自己的privacy和最重要的一点，是家人的资料和安全。

我真的很不喜欢那些三不识七的家伙与我装熟、找借口说别人介绍。。。一大堆的烂理由然后希望我会approve他们send来的friend request。有些更糟糕，send了friend request也不介绍下自己是什么咚咚，facebook里的display那么却是奇奇怪怪的字号或名字，也没个看得到对方样子的照片可以辨认身份，很自然的就是托咯，心情好的时候就会给对方发个message问下对方什么人，我们是否认识的。。然后往往得到的reply就是“我啊，我就是我咯，我都不认识你，你做么将问？”，不然就是“哦，我不认识你的啦，不过我看到你的商品照片很美所以就add你咯”。通常收到这样的reply我都会礼貌性的拒绝对方。偏偏这两天里我都收到很多白痴兼无聊的回复，说什么“我本来要跟你买东西的，不过你不approve我的friend request我就不要了”。=.=||| diu~我宁愿做少你这单生意、少赚你几块钱也不要把自己和家人的资料、安全拿来做赌注啦！鬼知道你会不会是个psychopath？更何况我已经把买卖商品的photo album换去了每个人都可以观看的setting，里边还有我的联络方法，只有脑袋装草的家伙才会用那种幼稚的方法来让别人add他/她。

要在网络谈私隐是件不容易的事情，就连online banking和投资也有一定的风险，所以很多时候我都尽量不把身边人的照片放上去，一来避免不必要的问题，二来可以保护大家的私隐，最重要的还是安全，可是偏偏就是有这种脑袋装草的人想不开，这边message我表达“你不add我是你的损失”的讯息，另一方面却在我ignore对方的friend request后再次add我，还加上各message“please add me, thank you”。这种人还真的需要抓去洗脑+辅导，你可以在网际网络里add到上千上万的朋友，但重要的还是现实中的人物，网络不但可以赚钱，也可以让一个人的安全受到威胁，所以那些脑袋装草的家伙们，我祝福你们早点找到自己的脑袋，多拜神希望不要有一天某个变态老出现在你人生里进行骚扰就好了。

国家很穷，人民很穷，我也很穷。。。

2010-06-16T09:23:00.006+08:00

自从开始支付自己大部分的花费以后才发现原来这个世界钱真的很重要。每六个月例行的dental check up就已经从三位数开始跳起了。做么不去政府的牙科诊所？？去过一次，也得到很令人难忘的经验，那该死的政府牙科诊所从护士到牙医一听到一个家伙牙齿不痛不痒却跑去那里给他们添工作-要检查牙齿和洗牙，脸上的表情从没有微笑变成皱眉头、脸部紧绷的模样（可怜，我还以为他们的脸抽痉），检查牙齿的时候either很粗鲁或者是随便看看就好了，过后和朋友聊天聊起的时候才知道那些在政府诊所工作的医生、护士平均一天需要接待不知道多少的“顾客”，薪水方面比私人界的却相差一笔数目，所以很多时候他们并不太喜欢那些有事没事跑去那里给他们添工作的神经病家伙。。=/ 然后阿然后就是自从公共交通工具的费用起价后，我在交通方面的花费也就高出了原本的一倍。原本每个月一次的book shopping都被逼取消，一来是存着钱要作更大的投资和education fund，二来发现我有兴趣、要买的书真的特别贵（真是鸡蛋糕！政府不是讲要鼓励人们多阅读的吗？！书那么贵，不是每个人都有本事住在私人皇宫、花费习惯从不受到其有起价而影响的，ok？！）。

所以阿所以。。今天就在这里打广告，麻烦各位多多支持，谢谢。

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红酒vs心情

2010-06-13T04:11:00.003+08:00

好久没这么relax了。

手里的酒杯是一个不算熟的朋友千里迢迢从法国带回来。那么多年来都没见面，联络更是少得接近零，没想到今年华人农历新年期间无意间在msn聊天时提到本身对葡萄酒有兴趣的事情他竟然会放在心上，回来大马前特地从法国买了一个酒杯送我。真是难得，虽然对方不是直的，但会把一个random chat内容牢记在心里的朋友也算是个有心人，日后又多了一个shopping kaki，真是件好事。

最近心情都很差，不晓得为了什么心情就是很差。跟那位从法国回来的朋友聊到过去的事情，才发现原来只是借不是每个人都会随着时间而改变，他还是以前的他，一点都没变。对方一直提起我们以前的威水史，不断地认为我还是以前那个什么都办得到，把“不可能的任务”变成“什么都可能发生”；可惜在现实中大家都必须随着时间做出改变，问题在于变得更加好还是更加糟糕而已。

对于过去，我老早就放弃了，对于未来我不晓得自己该做些什么，面对现在我内心还在挣扎着。这一切一切都因为过去自己是个独裁者，一个喜欢各自行动、他人配合自己的独裁者；而现在厌倦了那种生活，厌倦了人人听见我会出现就会深深的吸一口气那种场面，厌倦了当自己突然出现在某种公事上的场合大家就会乱了手脚、慌慌张张的把自己efficiency的一面尽量表现出来；对，我让他们害怕，恐惧是我的同伴，我不能分离的同伴，我的出现代表恐惧感，我就是那个可恶的家伙，那个让人害怕的家伙，那个一出现就会无缘无故的让人感到害怕的家伙，真该死！酒，喝多了本来就会醉，醉了头就会变得沉重，眼皮也自然的会慢慢的合起来，脑袋更是会听话的去休息。

喝得头昏眼花又怎么样？醒来还不是要面对现实。一次过开了两瓶酒，两瓶再便宜不过的葡萄酒，虽然味道尝起来根本就比不上平时喝的，但至少效果也不错，一瓶下肚以后就开始了昏晕晕的感觉，另外加上一瓶就足以让虫有种飘飘然的感觉，不亏是葡萄酒，至少比那些该死的啤酒好得多。可惜，Pinotage并不是本身懂得欣赏的葡萄酒之一，我还是喜欢Cabenet Sauvignon。

葡萄酒的口感随着温度而改变，而当下我还是喜欢把Pinotage稍微加热，摆放在room temperature，为的就是让它变得涩，让它符合我的心情，我这糟糕的心情。

啊。。该睡了，该死的眼皮开始掉下来了。

Of life [Part 2]

2010-06-11T02:20:00.002+08:00

It has been two years since I last spoke to any one I knew but not close to. I have no idea why but I feel comfortable living my current lifestyle though it's not normal. I feel very much alive when I'm awake when night falls, dead when sun rise yet I keep walking, juggling both life like a living dead.

Few days back a cab came out of nowhere and knock me, the moment I saw the cab coming towards me, I felt relieve, I saw death yet I felt relieve. Surprisingly I survived without a single scratch when the cab hit me so hard that threw me off ground and fell a few feet from where I was standing. I have no idea why, but it happened. All I feel after the accident was nothing, I don't feel pain though there are bruises on my legs; I'm happy that I found it, I'm happy that I saw it, and I'm happy it came looking for me though it missed me for the second time in my life - Death, you tried twice yet you missed me over and over again, what a lousy player you are.

Sometimes I have no idea why I get depressed; it just came and go, leaving no trace nor hints for me to follow. I have no idea why people keep telling me to do this and that, to be this and that, to follow this and that path, walk after so and so and set whoever it is as example. I'm sick of all these, I had enough but what can I do? I feel so helpless, I have no idea what I want in my life or for my life. Studying law may or may not be my ideal course, but what else can I do without a proper qualification, or worse what will become of me in the future? I don't know, I can no longer see my own future though sometimes I foresee things in my dream, things that no one could understand until they happen in the future.

I'm not a witch nor a seer, I never asked for all these yet dreams just pop in my head when I'm asleep and show me part of my future. When I was a kid I used to take it as a gift, being able to foresee one's own future might be something useful but not for me. I use to enjoy sleeping at night until years ago I found out as long as I sleep during daytime I would not only set my mind free but emotionally stable until now I've lost the touch of future and I regretted. How I wish I can just take a peep into my own future and find out what I'm suppose to do, who can I trust and which is the right path.

I met this girl when I was doing a level, we were in the same class and somehow same group for some group work. The very first time I saw her I was shocked, her personality is like the photocopy version of a friend of mine, a long lost friend whom I lost contact long time ago; then I realise she's might sound the same, looks the same but she can never be the same person who was my best friend. 17 years of friendship ended over jealousy, that is ridiculous yet it happened. What else can possibly go wrong with the world? Yes, anything, it can be so ridiculous that others might think you're mad, but it happens. I made new friend, get kinda close, but I doubted the value of her friendship over some stupid advices and I cast her aside. Call me stupid, yes I am and I'm not sorry for it 'cuz sorry can't change anything from the past! I can't change things from the past but I knew I should do something to change what I have now which will affect the future but I didn't. I allowed time to slip away then only I realise I've lost so much in my life that I can't do anything to save it anymore. I'm slipping away, I'm no longer the very same person who can set all odds aside and create miracles, made the impossibles to possibles, grab hold of tiny chance and surprise everyone. I'm just not the same anymore, I've lost myself, my faith, my will to fight against all odd, I fight for what I used to believe in - opportunities were created not given. That was the past, when I left that place with a heart stung by hurtful words, I died. I'm no longer the legend, I'm just an ordinary person right now, the person who failed a level once and barely get a pass to enter LLB programme.

I indulged myself with alcohol, spent all my financial sources for drinks. I have fall so low, so low that I don't know what I am or who I am. I can't feel the inner peace that I used to have, things just don't work as I planned no matter how hard I tried I just can't get what I wanted. I feel so helpless, so lost. I don't know what I am and I don't know that I want. I'm just so lost.

2010-05-27T20:37:00.002+08:00

As I said, those who served me well will be rewarded, those who failed me will be banished; this is just the beginning, eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth, you made your choice, so do I.

I've lived in the dark for a really long time, long enough for me to realise there's no hope for a change, if it is so, then I shall make the changes. Those who took advantage of my youth and inexperience will be punished, I don't see any reason for people to take advantage of me, be it the situation or position, I do not tolerate such evil acts, nor does my conscience allow it. I will not show mercy, will no longer be merciful. I will be my own mistress and have no master!

怪懒aunty [Part 1]

2010-05-26T17:52:00.006+08:00

话说回来，前阵子在Fb看到junior news poll update写着“今天全班的女生被女老师全身乱摸.. Zzz”，第一个印象就是学校里的怪懒aunty又出招了。

做么我会叫那个东西怪懒aunty咧？这个问题就要回到我还在初中一的时候，那时候还在下午班，那么很自然的下午班的学生就必须在早上回去学校参与课外活动。下午班学生为了执行身为学生的责任回到学校参与课外活动是属于正常不过的行为，也就是说大家都规规矩矩的出席活动没有吵闹也没有捣蛋，理论上来说是不应该被校方刁难更不应该被某一小部分假正经的老师骚扰。

某个星期五早上，我就很乖的出席英文学会的meeting，那天早上英文学会的老师心情特别好带我们这些下午班的小孩子到media room那里去看戏（其实目的是要我们看了以后用英文来发表个人的感想，鼓励学生多用英文交谈嘛）。活动结束了很自然的大家就帮忙整理media room里的座椅顺便打扫（一来是活动导师给的指示，二来大家都希望接下来的日子老师还会带我们去看戏），打扫完毕大家都应该回家然后准备去上课对不对？那时候大家都是骑脚车来回学校的，那么很自然的我们就走路去脚车棚那里拿脚车咯。去到脚车棚那里的时候就看到一个穿着一件长袖的T-Shirt和运动裤、身材像油桶、语气很不友善、动作又很怪懒的aunty，手里握着一条很粗的藤便问也不问我们为什么会在脚车棚就直接扫了我们几鞭。扫了以后那家伙才问我们这些下午班学生为什么到脚车棚、为什么早上去学校、谁批准我们早上到学校出席活动、那个老师负责的...etc。那时候鬼知道那家伙到底是什么咚咚（她有没有介绍下自己是什么东西、什么职位），我回答她的时候就没有叫她cikgu，结果很怪懒的就被她骂然后当时在场的每个学生都必须在一张空白的纸张写上自己的名字、班级、学会、父母联络号码等等资料才能够回家。记得那一次是英文学会最后一次让下午班学生参与的活动，也是最后一次我初中一的时候在早上回去学校（除了星期六、日）。

初中二的时候换去了早上班，很自然的就接触到更多高年级的学生，认识更多人。那时候大家还是很乖，我也依照惯例参与英文学会的活动，活动的时间也很自然的是在放学后。早上班的活动有点不同，学会导师并不一定会在活动进行期间在场，很多时候都是活动开始前老师就会交待委员任务，然后委员主持活动。记得有一次英文学会的活动刚好与巡查员开会时间碰在一起，然后刚巧大部分的委员都是巡查员所以活动被延迟，那一天我又遇到那怪懒的家伙。上了早上班就自然地会去了解学校里哪些老师很变态、哪些老师不错，老早就知道那怪懒的家伙是学校里的纪律老师，一个态度很有问题、思想很极端的纪律老师。遇到这种情况，身为一个正常的学生通常都不会去招惹任何与纪律有关的问题，更不会去得罪这种老师因为得罪这种只手遮天的老师就别想在那种学校呆下去。那时候我和几位朋友在学校食堂一边等一边做功课，那怪懒的家伙经过的时候我的朋友就向她请安（很坦白的说，我没有那么做，因为我一向来都不会去拍别人的马屁，尤其是这种让人觉得恶心的家伙，但我不会表现很嚣张的态度），那家伙发现我没向她请安就站在那里看着我，我也很自然的把手上的工作停下，抬起头来看着她，向她点点头加个礼貌性的微笑。就这样而已那怪懒的家伙就以她那种傲慢的眼神打量我，然后很重的语气来责问我为什么没向她请安然后insult my mother。*真是搞笑，人家开口向你请安是种表示，表示你值得让人尊敬；给你一个微笑是种礼貌，那叫做diplomatic。*

待续。。。

因为教师节

2010-05-16T19:32:00.003+08:00

原本今天应该post下怪懒aunty的故事的，哪里知道这么巧竟然碰上国际教师节wor。。真是顶她的肺~教师节嘛。。这么巧那怪懒aunty也是教师，给下其他老师面子暂时不post出来。

教师节，自从中学毕业后就没有庆祝了，或者应该更准确地说中学毕业以后就完全没有理会什么奇奇怪怪的节日；今天很出奇的竟然有将鬼死多人不断提起“教师节”，so意思意思send个sms给还有联络的老师们咯，也因为是教师节Ulat我才有幸的认识到以前那些老师的庐山真面目-真是搞笑+变态（从他们回复的sms就足以让我的眼睛跳出来）0_0

好啦，因为教师节，所以今天不写任何怪懒家伙的怪懒事，你们要看啊。。慢慢等啦，等我接下来几天有空的时候就post出来啦，就这样bye bye。

网络不要写人，尤其是怪懒的人

2010-05-13T20:25:00.002+08:00

连续几个星期都到处跑，平均一星期里来回霹雳和KL两次，快累死虫了。

不过话说回来，“白天不要讲人，晚上不要讲鬼”这句该死的话是谁开始讲的？！真是该死的家伙！

前几天在facebook里写到以前早中学时期最令人“喜爱”的老师，做么那个老师会那么令人“喜爱”咧？

*要听故事的就等到这个weekend我有空了才继续写，会跟这篇有关，就这样bye bye* XP

2010-05-08T16:41:00.002+08:00

最近的心情大概可以算是。。暴喜暴忧。
不知道为什么老觉得生命里的某个角落有个缺口，一个怎么补也不能补好的缺口。
压力大，但还可以承受。
就是不知道问题出在哪里，总觉得很低落。
没什么，可能是累了，也可能是厌倦了这样的生活，也可能。。
不知道
算了，反正都不重要，mid term快来了，是时候读书了。

笑一笑

2010-05-05T21:48:00.002+08:00

老师们看到这样的作品会不会当场死掉？
哈哈

Of life

2010-05-04T18:50:00.002+08:00

两小时的睡眠；如果你问我一天都够不够，（以前的）我会说：”一点都不够”，（现在的）我会说：“不够，担有得睡总好过没得睡”。不知道从几时开始睡觉变成了一种奢华，也不懂得从几时开始睡眠在我眼中与金钱相比，睡眠会比金钱重要。

现在的生活，平均一个星期内有就有两到三天没得睡，或者准确来说那三天里平均可以睡的时间是六小时。我不知道时间是怎么从我身边溜走道，只是知道时间越来越不够用，为了完成更多的事物、得到更多的资讯，时间变成了我的筹码，而我却变成了赌徒-生命的赌徒。

Everyday I would hear people telling me to study hard for a better future, be a successful person, but then who doesn't want to be "successful"? But who is tell us what "successful" is? And who is to classify whether we are successful or not??

People keep telling us when we were just kids back then to study hard, study is everything, it determines where we stand in the future, whether we can earn a proper living or not. Parents and teachers kept nagging us in studying hard, be a smart person, be a successful one, so that someday later we may live a proper or even luxury lifestyle. But then people tend to forget one point, WHAT IS "SUCCESS"?

Just because the world things being successful is to have either money, status, influential or all three of them doesn't mean it is the fact and every single person will have to head for it. What about us? The desire buried deep inside, the very little dream we use to held during our childhood, the little things that keep one happy or maybe satisfactory. YES, the QUALITY OF LIFE. What about it?

How many of us can actually remember when is the very last time we spent hours chit chatting with our family without involving the overly concern of anyone towards our academic achievements? When was the last time we ever feel happy by just having a relaxing walk in the field or perhaps fly a kite ( literally)? WHEN??! * Guess those memories slipped through our mind huh?*

I don't know why I feel so depressed over my life, perhaps it is the pressure or perhaps it is the environment but it doesn't matter. I was happy, or at least I did enjoy my involvement in some social welfare activities back in school days and those days were awesome ( set aside the scoldings I would get form my dad for joining the activities). Now that I'm still alive, but I can't feel it, I don't see life the way it was, and this life was never meant for me, not at all.

I doubted myself. Standing before strangers, I doubted myself. Presentation was never a dreadful task until now. I feared, but it wasn't the crowd, it is me. I have no idea what I'm suppose to do, I have no idea what have became of me throughout the past 2 years, and now here I am. People who knew me but never meet me recently will never believe what have become of me;people who know me without meeting me in my previous lifestyle will never believe that was me. One can never lead before knowing how to follow, but one who lead then follow will either be a better leader or lost the charisma to lead. That is the tragedy of life.what have become of me? Where is my courage? How things changed my life? I have no idea. All I knew was the fear that hit me so badly today will probably be the end of my life as a monarch, turning me a slave, a slave of myself.

好事来的。

2010-05-02T16:00:00.003+08:00

自从星期六被规定为环保日以后，终于有机会看部分人在商场购物使用环保袋。好事来的~

奇怪的是除了星期六以外，其余的时候环保袋简直就像稀有物品那样，柜台那里cashier这便给，顾客就那边拿，一个小黄瓜+几条菜一个袋、几个罐头+一个口香糖又一个袋、内衣裤又一个袋、水果又一个袋。。恐怖的还是排在我前面正在负钱的妇女，购物篮里只有五、六样东西（sardine、tuna罐头类），cashier给了两个大袋子那妇女还嫌不够竟然开口骂人*walao~ Aunty，需不需要哦？！*一个大袋子装不下五、六个罐头么？真奇怪

回家路上弯去附近的复印店拿书。两天前明明就千吩咐万吩咐老板要两页两页印在一张A4（省纸嘛~），然后封面不要加plastic也不要binding，只需要最简单的钉在一起不会脱落就好。结果好心的老板还是一页一页的印+plastic+binding。。无言~心痛的不是那一点点的钱，只是很不明白为什么一方面大家都在努力的环保、努力的挽回对地球的伤害，另一方面却有人却抱着事不关己的态度，同时抱怨空气污染啦、水源污染啦、很热啦。。。=.=|||

环保不是潮流而是必要的。在这种时候还不懂得珍惜地球资源开始环保难道要等到地球到了无可救药的时候才来怨，这种心态还真的很令人讨厌下的说。去年我第一次接触到有关EM的咨询，刚开始是包着小孩子玩泥沙的心态来做酵素泥球、垃圾酵素，那时候并不敢把那些酵素融入家庭生活因为担心会有负面影响，把成品用在园艺方面结果发现原本用化学物品（农药、化学肥料）才能够维持的水准其实也可以用酵素来取代而且效果更好、更经济。好事来的~

现在老妈也会把家里那些清洁剂加点酵素来洗碗、洗地、洗厕所；老妈从不能够接受我收果皮做垃圾酵素（她认为我在浪费时间和收集垃圾）到现在的接受和利用成品，我想我面对的最大问题是供应不足。好事来的~

我不是圣人，也不是时间特别多的那种，大家都拥有一样的24小时一天，环保不是有没有时间、有没有机会，而是心态问题。环保袋不是星期六的特点，也不是在商场购物才能用的；少用些纸张、把草稿写在草稿纸、废纸上不是什么麻烦的事。环保不是件羞耻的事情，它是文明的举动、理智的，懂得环保的人懂得尊重生命因为他们拥有一个正确的心态，好事来的。你开始行动了吗？

虫会进化成什么？？答案：虾 =.="

2010-04-30T20:30:00.004+08:00

无可否认自从我开学后大部分的时间都呆在室内，或者更准确来说有空调的室内。也因为长期呆在冷气房里的关系，原本就已经很差了的皮肤变得更差，连我阿麽的皮肤也比我好得多。T_T

皮肤差还可以接受，因为这世界还有样东西叫做moisturizer，但是很令人讨厌的是适应了长期呆在冷气房里的状态，每次一走出学院就感觉到很热，热到要变烤肉了。Ok，这也就算了，最令人受不了的还是自己变成了热带北极熊-走出冷气房的十五分钟内一定猛灌水、找地方遮荫。。*想当年Ulat我还是怕冷不怕热的那种，每天下午都呆在草场那里暴晒+操步都没问题。。*T_T

今天。。他妈的那该死的鬼天气。。竟然。。那么热。。特别的热。。热到快死人了的热。。害我放学后走路到停车场（不到十分钟）就中heat stroke！真是鸡蛋糕！害我走得那么辛苦，好不容易找到车，打开车门，坐在车里死命倒水在手脚头来降温+死命灌水，怕死自己成为第一个大马人在大马因为heat stroke的关系而死掉然后上报！最吓人的还是在倒水的时候眼睛不小心往望后镜看了那么一眼的时候看到了自己除了脸很红（那个叫关羽还是包公的家伙看到我应该会觉得惭愧吧）连颈、手脚都变红了*那时候突然间觉得自己像煮熟了的虾* =.=" 恐怖到。。 =S

更厉害的还是驾车回家驾到一半竟然塞车（因为这世界有很多没脑袋的人非法把车停在路边，PS:回教堂的停车场不够位，附近有空的草地但是那些生物可能走多几步路就会死掉所以。。），坐在车里等着过那段路（冷气开到最大了，我那时候全身还是湿湿的）都感觉到热！！所以我说，史前生物要么就因为气候的变化而绝种，要么就进化成奇奇怪怪的生物。。比如现在的ulat就经历了pre-进化成虾的过程，不知道明天、后天、大后天。。。还会不会继续进化。

Mm...我没有因为温度的上升而烧坏脑袋hor？？

Words

2010-04-12T20:48:00.003+08:00

Of everyone else, why must you pick on me?

Ever since I came to this place, I started doing things I don't have to do at home. From washing the plates, mopping the floor, taking care of the garden, carry shopping bags/laundry bags/ whatever bags, bring out the garbage and pay the bills... no matter how hard I tried to please you, all you ever do is to pick those little imperfections from everything I did. WHY?? Your sons can get away from everything, and I, gets the blames. Is this what you call "JUST" and "FAIR"??

Why must you pick on me most of the time? Am I so hideous that you don't see the reason for not doing so to hurt me? Words uttered, may seem to be mere words, but the impact of those words is so great that perhaps you don't even realise those words of yours wounded me, pierce through my heart like a spear, and all I can do is to keep my silent cries within my room, beneath my blankets. Why?

Am I not entitle to my share of love and affection from you? Don't I deserve that little bit of recognition from you? My life would be much more interesting and meaningful if you could be a little supportive and say something encouraging when I achieve something, some form of success; instead you threw hard, cold words at me, telling me to give up. For four years, four friggin years I strive hard to achieve something, if it is not academically, then my personal and social interest, and yes I manage to achieve a little success, be one of the most influential student in that town, and most importantly, people ( mark my words: PEOPLE, not only from my generations, but also those from both older and younger generations - parents, teachers, kids...), they admired my achievements, they cheered for me, they look upon me, they called for my names. All these, I worked so hard to achieve it, hoping to get some form of compliment from you, be it a simple smile, or maybe some form of encouraging words, but none, nothing. Instead, you told me off, telling me how disgusted you were with my achievements, how disappointing you were toward me. Why?

For years I had always wanted to come home, back to this place and to you, I missed you so badly over the years, hoping that we are able to catch up with the time and things we missed out over the years, but... What went wrong? Why?

I am also a human, I have feelings too. There's a limit to everyone's patience, and there's is a limit to everything, so does to every single words. You criticized me, I accepted the facts, yes it is my fault for the imperfections and I do agree that I should work on something to improve things, but then you always went over the limit, throwing words right at me. Mind you, words can be a poison as well as an antidote; most of the time, they are like thorns, they sting, as painful as it can be, poison seep through the open wounds...

I have had hated this family for year, don't make it worse. Of flesh and blood, there is nothing much left to tie us together, don't break that little vase in my heart where I store all my faith for my family, and for you.

美好的时刻，因为你

2010-04-09T13:54:00.005+08:00

星期五，平时可以算是特别忙的其中一天。

今天不同，一早就在学院里闻到香喷喷的乳酪味，下午就到月树这里享用午餐，当然少不了这里的Cheese Cake。今天很特别的，尝试了Marble Cheese cake，口感很特别，第一口就让我想起了老妈早几年前在家里做的marble cheese cake，不同之处就在于今天我身为一个客人坐在月树吃marble cheese cake；而几年前的我是老妈的专用白老鼠-试吃她第一次尝试做的食物，当然在我家里尝试的最多中的食物就是cheese cake。

第一口，那香浓的乳酪味加上那一点点的柠檬香和巧克力味就足以让我享受那好像飞上了天的感觉-那熟悉、结实、香滑的口感好特别，久别的味道再次回到脑海里hmmm mmmm mmmmmm。

阿，该走了，不然就赶不上火车回家了。

Emotion rollercoaster

2010-04-01T22:29:00.003+08:00

Been enjoying my not-so-busy life for a week or two, well, what can I say..

I did enjoy myself over the last weekend back in hometown, visited the juniors basic first aid course held in my former high school, met up with some friends and classmates, helped out my personal tutor and had some quality time spent with my family. At a point I realise that not many of us could actually enjoy happiness as how we did during childhood. Some people tend to mess up others life by manipulating words, messages or even information's just to cause troubles to others. Well, what can I say? It's the world, reality, nothing much that I can do about it. Personally I understand part of the reason, or at least I was once an observer to that particular person or group, but then I just don't get the point to do so. It's the power struggles I guess, and it's right that absolute power corrupts absolutely.

I may not agree to the concept of practicing dictatorship, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't appreciate the concept and purpose behind that managing decision as me myself is a dictator in nature and I do practice the very same thing everyone hated ( Irony isn't it? yet it happens). I will not allow others to question certain issues but most of the time I prefer to have opinions voiced out before I make my decision. Under certain circumstances we will need some form of dictatorship to a certain extend, the same goes to democratic. Personally I don't have any problems with people who detest dictatorship, but what I hate to see and hear about certain issues that needed to be discuss and make the outcome answerable to the public were manipulated by the very same person or same group of people who held that " Dictatorship is a total corrupts" yet things they did turned out in the other way round. I won't say it is hypocrisy, but I do doubt their intention and credibility, it is not the matter of policy that I'm questioning, but the purpose. Solutions? Well, I have none, but then those in charge of it should think of reconciliation.

Ahhh... it is nearly midnight and it's time to continue with my revisions. Nevermind my latest post, it the matter of time I should be able to pledge insanity..

怀孕了

2010-03-25T03:22:00.004+08:00

种了两年的黄梨终于结果了。几个星期前原本以为只是开花就不以为异，跟弟弟说起我种的黄梨终于开花了的时候被那小子酸了一酸，才知道原来它偷偷的“怀孕”了（是的，我弟弟的的确确跟我说“ Your pineapple plant pregnant dy”）。

从原本的“开花”到“起红毛楼”的样子，心里暗暗的高兴，因为过去两年内没有白种这个怪兰的家伙。虽然原本种这个黄梨树的用意是要把它和其他有很多刺的仙人掌放在篱笆旁防贼、防隔壁那怪兰的邻居用的，现在既然给我长出了黄梨还真的高兴死我了。连续每天都定时浇水、除草和一星期一次的施肥，希望那个黄梨可以快高长大然后就可以把那个“头冠”砍下来再种多一颗，这样就不用浪费钱买黄梨了（因为全家上下除了老妈以外都没有人会把黄梨当作是水果，更不会去吃）

结果等了又等，终于等到那黄梨长大了，可是还没有熟。老妈说还没有熟不可以砍结果只有眼睁睁的看着那黄梨因为自己的体重而倒下（搞不好时心脏病还是中风？！）

倒下的两天后我再回去看看时才发现原来那该死的黄梨太重了，把自己的脚也给扭断了。

这样也好，不用我亲自动手去谋杀那黄梨。现在那个因为自己“体重超标而扭断自己脚的黄梨”正躺在我妈的水果箱里等待被宰的命运，而我就是那个的等待人家被宰了以后来取头冠的那个家伙。*奸笑*

感想

2010-03-24T02:39:00.002+08:00

这几天日夜颠倒的生活又回来了，其实也没什么只是课业上有点压力（是自己怕输）然后加上身体容易感到疲累造就了午觉的习惯结果白天一睡那一至二小时晚上就睡不着了。

最近在网络上遇到了很多旧同学、朋友、同事。自从中五毕业后回到称得上城市的地方升学以后就很少回去家乡，就连有假期的时候我都选择在这里找份兼职、出外帮人打工领着一天平均马币八十左右的薪金也不回去。我知道很多人都骂我傻、说我笨，家里有一盘生意需要可靠的人帮忙，回去帮忙打理家庭生意不只是不需要愁日常的开销，连薪金也比普通员工高出好几倍；不是我不想回家，只是本身对工作和家庭有一个概念-工作是工作，working hour以后就是我的私人、家庭时间，我以向来都不喜欢在家里谈工作，更不喜欢把工作上的问题带回家可是往往传统的家庭生意并不是这样。对我爷爷、老爸他们那一辈的人来说家庭生意就是家庭里的其中一个element，工作时候可以谈家庭的琐碎事，放工回家后可以谈工作上的问题。我不喜欢那样的生活，更不认同生意上某方面的管理方式。啊~看情况啦，短期内是不打算回去帮忙打理得啦，偶尔回去帮忙下还可以但不会长久除非管理和沟通方式有所改善啦。

啊！烦啊！功课压力好大！身体觉得很不舒服，明明就觉得很热却一直冒冷汗，昨天起床的时候就爬不起来，好像没有了骨头来支撑那样结果skip class了。课业都还没上轨道竟然skip class，都不知道怎么死法。。更恐怖的还是昨天有两个科目的assignment要交，其中一个tutor可以用“ganas”来形容，昨天没有去上课就没有交到功课都不知道明天去学院的时候才交会不会被她铲到尸骨无存。。也不知道星期五的那两个科目的tutors肯不肯批改额外作的练习（希望会啦，至少做了练习让他们过目以后就可以知道哪一方面必须更改）。唉，暂时不管了，今天必须再另外完成两个科目的练习和复习之前读过的，希望这种现象可以一直维持到毕业。。

上星期老爸有提到有关出国留学和发展的，我知道他是希望我能够出去发展看看世界之大、学习不同的治国、管理方式，但是。。。不懂啦，我本身是不打算practice的，拿个法律系文凭并不代表一切，到最后也不过是一张纸，毕业后也只不过是个普通大学生，到社会工作以后就可能会发现原来这世界并不是自己想象中、早期中所接触的那么美好。他是没说什么但看得出来老爸是希望我这代可以出个医生、律师、工程师之类的professional；有那样的想法其实也不能够怪人的，谁叫现在的生活那么竞争、消费那么高，人人都希望有好日子过，但是大家口中的“好日子”（舒适的生活）定义又是什么？大部分可能为钱财，有些可能为理想，有的就为了生活开心，这些都很个人的，没有一定的definition，而我追求的不只是这些。。啊！不管啦，可能找哪天我改变主意后想要成为律师或者是打算继续在法律界里发展的话才来打算啦，目前专注的还是课业上的成就（当然手头上的工作和兴趣也有啦，只是如果时间不允许的话就牺牲掉咯）未来的事没人知道，还是实际点好。

好了不写了，好累。看看这段片啦，从医生先生那里看到的，蛮有意思的。

Jalan Jalan Cari Buku 1

2010-03-17T22:01:00.006+08:00

终于有得去Summit的Popular Clearance Sales了。这次的sales没有预期中的大，虽然广告打着折扣高达90%但是大多数都保持在20%-50%左右（当然也有要清货的那种-70%）。

Clearance Sales的其中一部分

可能是因为weekday working hour的关系，那里人潮并不多，在那里买了八本书（六本自己的，两本弟弟的），damage=RM60左右，不会很便宜但也不会贵，价钱还在budget里。虽然满足不到shopping mood，但还是很开心，找到了其中六本一直以来都在找着的书。

----------我是分界线----------

之前看了这本书作者的著作（Kite Runner）对他的名字印象很深所以今天特地去找他另一本书- A Thousand Splendid Suns。过去几年里看过了那么多作家的作品，就只有好几个足以让我记得的名字，Khaled Hosseini是其中一位。他的著作Kite Runner也是其中一个足以“震撼人心”的一本书-友谊、背叛、战争、亲情。。。有很多值得大家去思考的问题。

Hosseini的作品

感谢老爸赞助今天的开销，接下来两天内应该会到IOI Mall那里的Popular Bookfair逛逛，希望到时候可以找到剩下那些书，然后接下来的几个月就不用浪费时间出门逛街、买书了。^^

~广告时间~

I'm Looking For:
1) Elizabeth's Spymaster by Robert Hutchinson
2) The Last Eunuch of China- Sun Yaoting by Sun Yaoting
3) The Other Queen by Philippa Gregory
4) Elizabeth The Queen by Alison Weir
5) Isabella: She-Wolf of France by Alison Weir
6) My Side of History by Chin Peng

Books for Sell:
1) English Legal System by Catherine Elliott and Frances Quinn
2) Contract Law by Catherine Elliott and Frances Quinn
3) Tort Law by Catherine Elliott and Frances Quinn
4) Twilight Set ( Duplicated Version) - All 4 books
5) The Risen Empire by Scott Westerfeld
PRICE: Offer me, letting go at reasonable price.
REASON FOR SELL: Making space for other book collections.

Do contact me if you have ( and would like to sell off) the books I'm looking for, or interested in buying second hand books stated above at:-
Skype: duke_nikkon
or e- mail to dukenikkon@gmail.com

2010-03-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

A thousand cups of wine do not suffice when true friends meet, but half a sentence is too much when there is no meeting of minds.

被tag了

2010-03-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

♥ 个人题10 ♥
01 你叫什么： XY
02你的綽號： Ulat King, sushi, 虫虫，毛毛虫。。。
03你的血型： B-
04 你的星座： dunno
05 你是男還是女：算是女生
06 你幾歲： 19
07 你住哪裡： puchong
08 你現在的學校： atc
09 你有沒有手機：有
10 承上，那是多少： 1

♥ 朋友題 - 10 題 ♥
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）： err..食物算不算？
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：暂时应该还没有到那个地步

♥ 情題 - 10 題 ♥
21 你有沒有喜欢的人：有
24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：无可奉告
25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：无可奉告
26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友：无可奉告
27 現在有另一半吗： single
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你会怎样：给她一个大大的拥抱，然后一脚给她飞天
29 你初恋情人突然跟你告白你会接受吗：谁那么变态？
30 你为什么会喜欢你現在喜欢的人：谁那么倒霉？
31 你和另一半牵手过吗： define另一半
32 你和另一半抱或亲过吗：define抱或亲
33 你跟异性牵手过吗：很多次
34 是谁，你们什么关系：参与很多camp玩游戏时候认识的，算是同一个难民营里的同胞吧？
35 现在有人在追你吗：谁那么变态？

♥ 混合題 - 10 題 ♥
36 如果有天，好朋友离你而去，你会怎样：depressed
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你会：心碎
38 如果有天，好朋友对你喜新厌旧，你会：冷漠
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你会離家出走吗：搬出去，但不会离家出走
40 你上课認真吗：非常认真地打瞌睡
41 你功課好不好：半天吊
42 你开电脑都在干嘛： Msn ，写 blog ，玩fb，做research
43 你的即时通有多少个同性：你问什么咚咚？
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性：到底是什么东东来的？！

♥ 兇手題 - 10 題 ♥
45 传給你这份问卷的人是谁：粉肠教教主
46 这個人對你好不好：好啊
47 這個人是你的誰：教主兼心灵支持者
48 你有喜欢过這個人吗：不喜欢就不会做朋友了拉！
49 你们认识多久了：多久了阿？应该有一年多两年将子瓜~
50 這個人是怎样的人：吱吱咋咋、没有心机的生物
51 这个人正／帥吗：五官端正
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：在ns的时候算不算？
53 万一你喜欢這個人，你会怎么办：都说了不喜欢怎么会做朋友咧？！愚蠢的问题！

♥ 聯想題 - 10 題 ♥
56 說到正妹你会想到谁：什么是正妹？
57 說到帥哥你会想到谁：好像没有见过真正帅的人wor。。
58 說到憨你会想到谁：什么来的？！
59 說到痴你会想到谁：白痴啊？
60 說到暗恋你会想到谁：明人不做暗事，要好恋就恋个够，不要在那里暗恋
61 說到出去玩你会想到谁：自己
62 說到聪明鬼你会想到谁：很多
63 說到傻子你会想到谁：也很多
64 說到笑点低你会想到谁：什么鬼大便来的？！
65 說到愛笑你会想到谁：教主

♥ 學校題 - 11 題 ♥
66 你的班导是谁：没有
67 你的座位是第几排第几个：心情好的时候就坐后面，不好的时候就坐前面
68 你最喜欢的老師是谁：昨天近来代课clr&i的那个女士
69 你的英文好吗：麻麻地
70 你的体育好吗： kawad算体育吗？
71 你的数学好么：高中数学刚刚及格那种
72 你喜不喜欢你的校长：校长长得像teddy bear。。
73 你的学校好看吗：可以拿来拍鬼戏的样子
74 你的班級是：inter jan 2010
75 你的班級在几楼：一楼到四楼都有，但肯定跳楼跳不死人的那种

1.被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传給你的人和问卷
2.請老实的回答每一個问題
3.不行擅自塗改題目
4.写完请点8位朋友，不可不点
5.点完后请通知那些朋友他们被点到了

我点。。
不知道要点谁。
谁要玩就来烦我啦，我让你试试看当白痴的滋味。

The word before F

2010-03-07T01:17:00.003+08:00

Been very lazy lately. Sleep most of the time at home, spent less time doing revision. =S

It's Sunday, guess better make full use of today to catch up with my studies. Monday & Tuesday will be classes and tutorials ( Oh shit! I have an essay due this Tuesday to Barbie Doll!!). Had been relying on mum to send and fetch me from one place to another cuz my driving license expired 2 weeks ago but haven't got the time to renew it . YAY! That means I'm out from probation period!! =D

Maybe will get my license done by Wednesday early morning, then meet my dentist ( Yes, I have an appointment with my dentist this coming Wednesday), lets hope she doesn't nag again. 'M still thinking whether or not to extract my wisdom tooth ( two of 'em, upper part) thought they didn't cause any pain nor trouble to me, but feels weird to have 'em around ( not that I can bite ppl using both wisdom tooth!). Well, lets listen to the doctor's advices and see how.

Thursday shall go for a medical check up, had been feeling very unwell these days. Blame the weather! Been sneezing for days and now I can literally feel the "air gap" in my lungs when I cough, wheezing and sounds a little like punctured tyres filled with a lot of mucus. Better get rid of these problems before it gets worse. Oh ya! Grandpa's coming on Thursday night! =D Plan to take him out for fine dinning on Friday evening but haven't decide where and what to have for dinner that day.

Been slacking a lot since 2 years ago, guess it is time to sort things out and get my life back. Efficiency is always the important thing but then I left it somewhere sometime ago, so folks, I'm back! It's time to catch up with the world and enjoy life again! =D * BTW, Screw you Yerik and bye bye, go to hell if this please you*

Bitting is not an offence, or it is?
Ulat~

Efficiency is doing things right, effectiveness is doing the right things.

友情与信任

2010-03-05T22:56:00.003+08:00

There are reasons to forgive, but none to forget.或许对某些人来说不去追究就等于把门打开人有他人再次给自己带来伤害。对于身边某些人我选择了原谅，而有些-保持着中立的立场。I don't see the reason why I should confront the other party, or at least it is not worth the trouble - It is the friendship that I treasure.或许“朋友”这两个字对某人来说是利益关系，但在我眼中“朋友”除了是利益关系，也是互相信任、健康的竞争、互相鼓励、扶持。。。

或许放下执著从另一个角度来看待事情对大家都会好过些。

一个真正的朋友不会因为你的身份、地位、过去而接近或远离你；相同的道理-为了他人所说的几句话、几个歪理就足以让朋友之间的信任动摇的话，那么这段友情或许还不值得过分地去考虑。。为了些小事情而闹翻除了让人觉得很“傻海”之外我还真想不到其他的字眼来形容。

当然，朋友之间本来就应该存有信任，这次我选择了去相信这位朋友，没有特别的原因只有信任。别人提出的问题，就让提出问题的人来证实事情的黑白吧~

下一步该怎么做？

2010-03-02T21:23:00.004+08:00

心中有根刺
虽然心里坚持相信自己认为是朋友的人
毕竟帮人就没有分你我，更不会要求任何回报
只是最近不晓得为什么总觉得心里很冷漠，很多事情不想去理

或许前阵子某人跟我说的也不是没有道理
虽然这家伙人格非常令人讨厌，有时候更是废话一大堆
但是经过他说提到的、分析出来的事情往往显示事实并不是自己所认识的。

犹豫着下一步该怎么做，
更是质疑这段友情的诚信

为什么问题总是一起出现？
最近的冷漠并不是我个人心里的感觉而已
连身边几个路人都察觉到有所不同

猜测的感觉并不好受
但不想在这个时候去质问
因为我在乎，非常在乎，也害怕失去
一段真诚的友谊得来不容易
只是担心一旦把对方的游戏猜穿就等于撕破大家的脸，不欢而散

自从某人给我分析了些事情以后就觉得自己好像一个笨蛋
或许是心理作用还是自己敏感
这几天都不去联络对方，也不太想见到对方
不是讨厌也不是不喜欢，只是担心遇见对方的时候心里会莫名其妙的出现很多问题
而这些问题说了出口就等于伤害别人的自尊心
对，我很在意身边朋友对一段友谊的真诚度
因为我不喜欢被人利用的感觉，也不喜欢给别人带来伤害

今天无意间碰见了对方
心里莫名其妙的感到悲哀
一方面责备自己对这段友谊所产生的质疑
另一方面有很多说不出口的问题在脑袋里旋绕着
更不想在这时候打扰对方的情绪，因为课业比较重要
除了让自己表现得冷漠，真的不知道该怎么做。

下一步我该怎么做？？

Fading

2010-03-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

Things are fading away lately...

I don't know what it is, but the feeling it is there.

I wonder what's wrong and what's going on...

I'ld prefer to have a talk about it, but.. well.. erm... maybe it's just me being sensitive as usual.

Yeah, I'm quite sensitive with my surrounding though most of the time I'ld choose not to know 'cuz I don't care much on the other side of the world.

But then... well lemme quote " 越在乎的人就越害怕失去", would like to have things sort out when the time comes. Hope everything will turn out fine. =\

虫的其中一个星期六

2010-02-28T13:39:00.006+08:00

逛街买东西的时候很讨厌遇到那种hard sales的sales personnel，明明就做不到你的要求却为了拼sales target在那里讲讲讲，然后又拿一大堆不是你要的东西出来要你买。虽然平时我花钱是没什么顾虑的，喜欢有用到的就会买，但那并不表示我是个lulu，随便让你哄两句就会买一大堆有的没的。

不管是买什么，我喜欢自己先看看，然后才叫sales girl/ boy来serve。我不喜欢一进到店里那里的sales personnel嘴巴就一直讲个不停，我会直接掉头走掉。不然就是那种办不到的，没有我要的货品却拿其他的东西来要我买，我会当场脸黑黑给他/她看。我去逛街就预料到了会有花费，所以我逛街很简单，要么确保自己有能力去承担一天里所有的消费数目（就是花钱花得顺手，不需要连一块、十块钱都需要想久久的那种）但并不表示爱买就买不管买的东西有没有用，不然我宁愿呆在家里读书。

昨天跟妈妈去逛街买衣服，看中了好几件衣服的design和搭配可是却没有我要的颜色或穿的时候皮肤觉得不舒服，很粗的感觉，就没买咯。买衣服的时候我喜欢自己慢慢看、慢慢选，看中了我要的就会叫店员拿给我或者是懒惰看的话就会直接跟店员说明本身的要求（比如颜色搭配方面，布料，size...etc）然后等店员把有关的衣裤拿出来让我选。很讨厌的是现在商场内的服装部门很少会有professional的sales personnel，要么就是死命hard sales不然就是睬都不睬人的站在一边跟同事聊天，这就是其中一个我不喜欢出门逛街的原因。别问为什么去年year end sales或者是今年农历新年前有sales的时候不去买而等到现在才去，我不喜欢人挤人，你买我也买的环境下买东西；那种气氛之下虽然会很有mood的去shop，但不会有满足感因为in terms of shapping quality已经被人潮破坏了。昨天以五百多马币买一套formal wear、陪陪家人和shopping satisfaction，我本身认为不会贵，因为普通一瓶可以入口的红酒就已经超过一百了，用五瓶红酒的价钱换来一个丰富的星期六上午和家人之间的互动并不是什么浪费的事情。要知道有很多东西并不是钱财可以换回来的。

星期六过得还不错，遗憾的是没什么碰到课本，更别提完成其中一份作文。*是的，我的功课和考试全都是作文来的，没有objective更没有subjective，全部都是essay*那些还在穿着校服去学校上课的家伙别老是跟我msn、sms的时候说什么羡慕大学生活不需要每天去上课什么的，当你来到这个阶段的时候就会发现原来它并不是跟你们想象中的那么爽快。阿~该继续温习了，就这样。拜拜~

短期间没什么事情都不会上来写了

2010-02-23T19:37:00.006+08:00

刚病好不久又好像要生病了。

身体真的很不舒服，很累，有种虚脱的感觉。

以前一天平均睡4-5个小时还是精力十足，现在一天里边平均需要睡上10小时（下午+晚上）还是会觉得累，做事情提不起劲，最恐怖的还是记忆力变得的很差；唯一好的方面就是体力突然强了很多，以前提不起的东西现在一只手就可以拿起来了。搞什么鬼？！

日子过得迷迷糊糊的，气死人的事情有很多，学院里的环境压力很大，很多奇奇怪怪的同学在班上一直讲讲讲讲讲个不停，也很大声，头痛，讲师、导师也有其奇奇怪怪的讲课方式，具体上已经可以认得他们的声音和讲课方式了，只是有时候听下听下会“迷路”。

日子过得迷迷糊糊，basically就是睡醒〉准备去上课〉上课〉放学〉回家〉睡觉〉温习+做功课〉睡觉

有很多事情他们想怎么样就怎么样吧，我不想去理也没能力去理了，人的东西不管你怎么做还是有人会觉得“你分给对方的蛋糕比较大块”然后处处找你麻烦、挑拨离间务必给你人生加上很多不必要的是是非非、麻烦。该死的家伙喜欢怎么玩就任由他去玩吧，给他玩个够玩到横死街头也不关我事，反正只要没影响到我事业、课业上的进度就好了。

就这样，近期没什么事情都不会上来了，好累，身心都很累，很多事情都不想知道。

Things I had been doing...

2010-02-21T03:36:00.002+08:00

I'm NOT SORRY for the lack of update, mainly because this is my blog ( yes it is, so shaddap and read or go play far far k?), and partly because I've started my classes ( READ MY LAST PROPER POST!) and needa take a rocket tour to catch up with the current flow in the class.

CNY wasn't fun at all, I mean minus the 3 days meal + ang pao, I don't feel excited over the celebration at all. Been reading and doing some reaserch online during my break and of course try to get some proper sleep while I still have the chance ( God knows when the hell ATC gonna turn me into another zombie just like everyone else in the earlier intakes).

Been leaving my lappy on most of the time, so sorry if I didn't reply any of your msg on MSN/YAHOO/SKYPE/FB Chat...etc, it is either I wasn't around or was very busy or don't see the point of replying, so if you wanna get annoyed, go on and may you get old real fast with lotsa wrinkles twinkles, best wish from yours truely, no worries I won't buy you coffins XP

As for those who tried to call me but couldn't get through or I didn't answer, it is either I was busy and will call back moments later, or you sucks and I don't wanna answer your calls. Simple straight forward answer, take it or leave it. Yess, this is my blog and I'm crapping here at 3.49am WTF~

For those who erm.. have an appointment with me PLZ do contact me to double comfirm it; those whom I'm suppose to meet but couldn't make it, well it's not you, it's me, so sorry; and those whom I needa clear some log or have things to ask/deal with me but not urgent, we'll discuss when meet online k? Don't call unless really urgent TQ Kam Xia Terima Kasih

Getting rid of A Level Books! Contact me

2010-02-21T03:23:00.002+08:00

TITLE: ENGLISH LEGAL SYSTEM 9^TH EDITION ( ISBN: 978 – 1 – 4058 – 5941 – 7)

AUTHOR: CATHERINE ELLIOTT & FRANCES QUINN

PUBLISHER: PEARSON EDUCATION LIMITED

PRICE: RM 57.00

BOOK’S CONDITION: EXCELLENT * Book wrapped, minor highlighting, underlines and minor scribbles in pencils*

TITLE: CONTRACT LAW 6^TH EDITION ( ISBN: 978 – 1 – 4058 – 4671 – 4)

AUTHOR: CATHERINE ELLIOTT & FRANCES QUINN

PUBLISHER: PEARSON EDUCATION LIMITED

PRICE: 44.00

BOOK’S CONDITION: EXCELLENT * Book wrapped, minor highlighting, underlines and minor scribbles in pencils*

TITLE: TORT LAW 6^TH EDITION ( ISBN: 978 – 1 – 4058 – 4672 – 1)

AUTHOR: CATHERINE ELLIOTT & FRANCES QUINN

PUBLISHER: PEARSON EDUCATION LIMITED

PRICE: RM 49.00

BOOK’S CONDITION: EXCELLENT * Book wrapped, minor highlighting, underlines and minor scribbles in pencils*

TITLE: CHARLOTTE BRONTE’s JANE EYRE [ A CRITICAL STUDY] 11^th Edition ( ISBN: 81 – 7581 – 189 – 7 )

AUTHOR: RAMJI LALL

PUBLISHER: RAMA BROTHERS INDIA PVT. LTD.

PRICE: RM 7.00

BOOK’S CONDITION: GOOD * Book wrapped, highlighting, underlines and minor scribbles in pencils*

TOPICS COVERED:

1) Charlotte Bronte: Her Life and Works

2) Charlotte Bronte As a Novelist

3) Jane Eyre: An Introduction to the Novel

4) The Characters and the Locations in the Novel

5) Jane Eyre: The Story of the Novel

6) Jane Eyre: A Chapter – Wise Summary

7) Some reviews of the novel Jane Eyre

8) Jane Eyre: Critical Appreciation

9) Character and Personality/ Portrayal of Jane Eyre

10) Character and Personality/ Portrayal of Edward Fairfax Rochester

11) Important Questions with Answers

TITLE: WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE’s KING LEAR [ Critical Introduction, Complete Text with Paraphrase, Notes and Explanatory Comments] ( ISBN: 81 – 7581 – 074 – 2)

AUTHOR: RAMJI LALL

PUBLISHER: RAMA BROTHERS INDIA PVT. LTD.

PRICE: RM 10.00

BOOK’S CONDITION: GOOD * Book wrapped, highlighting, underlines and minor scribbles in pencils*

TOPICS COVERED:

1) Life of William Shakespeare

2) Shakespeare’s Plays

3) Brief History of English Drama up to Shakespeare

4) Shakespeare, a Romantic Playwright

5) Some Facts About the Elizabethan Theatre

6) Shakespeare’s Greatness as a Playwright

7) Alleged Faults of Shakespeare

8) Shakespearean Criticism Through the Centuries

9) King Lear: An Introduction

10) King Lear: Some Important Aspect of the Play

11) King Lear: Story of the Play

12) King Lear: Critical Summary of the Play ( Act by Act, Scene by Scene)

13) Theme of Renunciation in King Lear

14) Types of comedy/ comic elements in King Lear

15) Personality and character of Lear

16) Fool and his function in the play

17) Other characters in the play

18) Selected Literary Criticism

19) Meaning and Explanatory Notes

20) Explanations, with reference to the context of selected passages

21) Important Questions with answers

Those interested please contact me via email [ dukenikkon@gmail(dot)com] or refer to the post I've posted in this forum ( click here to enter post) or C+P this link to enter site http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1332306

Welcome to HELL

2010-02-08T17:48:00.004+08:00

Finally decided to join intermediate class, reason? Well, I can't afford to waste any time dy, turning 20 end of this year and I don't want to get stuck in Pre-U programme and start all over again ( let's not mention the other few courses offered by a private college, doesn't look convincing enough for me to take the risk).

Everything was done last minute - registered at 9.30am, class started by 10am, got my timetable and the funny lady in 5th floor greeted me with " Welcome to LLB" but in her eyes I saw the words popping out as " Welcome to HELL". 0__0!!!

First day in class was indeed a horrible moment, tutors stuffed our brains with loads of theory and cases, hoping that every single creature in the classroom ( Feb intake) will be able to catch up with the current January intake which started weeks earlier, then by end of this week both Jan & Feb intake will combined into 1 class ( more than 60 creatures in a class, imagine that). I have no idea whether I made the right decision, or perhaps I don't have much choice to choose, time is running short, I don't want and can't afford to waste any time going through A Levels or maybe a diploma programme.

Manage to cope with today's Contract Law class, 'cuz the tutor was actually repeating the very basic idea of CL taught in A Level; Public Law was a total disaster, have no idea what the hell that tutor ( ok, let's call her Barbie Doll since she sounds like one) was teaching, it is like a make believe kind of thingy ( reminded me of that Krishna and his dead wife story lol~) yet very much important to pass this damn subject; Criminal Law wasn't that fun, partly I was very sleepy after lunch, didn't manage to grab hold of the idea behind every words spoken. =/

Well I guess there's no time to waste, this year CNY gonna spend time with books instead of enjoying myself with silly games. Hopefully can pass next week's MPOB's Boarding exam, get a licence and erm... stuck myself with books, notes, recorded lectures. Say Hello to Ulat Buku =.=

OH MON DIEU~

I'm not a SAINT

2010-01-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

You may not see my real temperament, but that doesn't mean I won't feel hurt.

I may hold back my tears in public, that doesn't mean you can pierce my heart with your words.

I am not a Saint, I might have to present myself like a saint on certain occasions, holding back the fire in me, fighting against my nature to hunt and attack. Stand still! Sit still! Eat properly with fork and spoon! YET NOTHING CHANGED, HATRED STILL LIVED IN ME SO DON'T TRY YOUR LUCK CUZ U NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU GONNA LOSE IT; you won't get away from me alive when I decides to play my game with you.

Haiti need us

2010-01-16T23:05:00.003+08:00

'09年的四川大地震新闻播出后数小时各国的华裔同胞就发挥善良的心来帮助灾民，有钱的出钱，没钱的出力（帮忙筹款、举办慈善活动、慈善表演、义卖等等为四川的灾民筹款）。各大华、英文报导更是大力的刊登四川地震后凄惨的场面和灾民的痛苦。。。

而今年在海地发生好几天了的地震，至今除了报导以外，难得见到各界人士以往的善心和关怀，至今除了来来去去的那几位朋友有提及海地灾情和想要捐款的idea以外，还真的没什么人去理会和散发他们内心的关怀，更别说是要捐款了。

四川遇难的灾民流着咱们华裔的血统，华人不忘根是件好事；但别忘了海地的灾民也是人，虽然肤色不同但生命的价值并不比其他民族来得差，并不表示他们不需要各界的帮助。我呼吁个位拿出你们当日对四川大地震的慈悲心，帮帮他们渡过难关吧！

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虚脱的感觉，除了无奈还是无奈。。。

2010-01-12T08:53:00.003+08:00

最近老是睡不好，更准确来说应该可以算是失眠吧。其实这种现象已经出现好一段时间了，只是之前出现失眠状况的时候，除了改变饮食和生活习惯（从多肉少菜改去多菜少肉）和多了些运动或休闲活动（种种花草、骑脚车、放风筝。。。）以外还真的没什么去理会这个问题。而现在不论饮食和生活习惯再怎么去改变，连平时上瘾的咖啡和茶都干脆不碰了，夜里躺在床上不管累得什么鬼样还是睡不着，不然就是睡着了但很容易醒过来 - 我反而发现在夜间自己的senses会比白天还要敏感，一点点的声音、味道、光线都很容易对自己造成一种干扰，结果往往一个晚上别人在睡觉睡得正香的时候我就得强迫自己把眼睛闭上然后等待自己睡着的那一刻来临（然后呢然后，很快的就到了早上6点，是时候载弟弟去上课了）=.=

之前失眠的时候不管好几天没睡好或连天完全睡不着都不会有这种虚脱的感觉，但现在只是一天而已本身就有种身体内的器官好象也很累的感觉，但大脑还是处于活跃的状况。。除了无奈，还是很无奈。2010年还真他妈的该死，新的一年才开始不久就这样折磨我 .|. 我想啊，如果有哪天你们在报纸上看到新闻头条写着《少年发疯乱咬人》的新闻的话就不用感到出奇啦。累得半死却睡不着还真的会把人给逼疯的啦。

Weird me

2010-01-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

I never like the idea of bringing people home, not even if that's a friend or relative, that explain why I hardly invite others to come over my place unless the person worth the value as a friend, a true and very close type of friend.

Inviting anyone to your own home is actually exposing your privacy to others especially bedroom, that's why most of the time I prefer to meet people in public places rather than inviting any Tom, Dick or Harry to my place. Yes, I'm a very territorial person and I don't like meeting strangers or having people to invade my privacy unless I feel comfortable with it.

When I give way to someone to enter my private life, I do expect some form of manners, BASIC MANNERS I call 'em. Like never go through my stuff or search through my cabinet, drawers...etc without obtaining my permission; or never roam or enter rooms other than where you are designed to spend the night unless being invited, so please buddies, show some form of manners that can reflect yourself as a civilized human! In my perception, you can be my best friend or someone close enough but that doesn't mean you can dump all your manners an behave the way you like in my place 'cuz I believe by carrying youself with proper manners reflect how your personality is and also a form of respect to the owner of that place.

So guys/ gals, when you are invited to come over my place, PLEASE, do respect my privacy and honour my rules. Never do things you don't like others to do to you, always remember I AM A VERY TERRITORIAL PERSON. =)

2010 you better not be a bitch or I shall bitch-slap you!

2010-01-01T21:22:00.003+08:00

2009年那个bitch终于走了。。。现在的我正在学习怎么去fall in love with 2010这个家伙。
Well，新的一年，不求多只求做事顺顺利利，如果有麻烦的话也让我有能力去迎接新的挑战，解决麻烦，人际方面就希望身边别有那么多小人作怪，祈求家人和身边的友人各个平平安安，做事顺顺利利，健健康康，别像去年那样多灾多难。

当然，也希望自己在理财方面能够处理得更好，不求大财只求够用，有点积蓄，偶尔有多余的零钱可以去逛逛书局、买买书，千万别让我像去年那样破财破到口袋、钱包都破掉；EQ方面还在尝试提升；学业与事业方面只求有所合理的成就；健康更是希望可以更好；宠物呢就希望它们健健康康无痛无病别像肥婆那样折磨了那么久，它辛苦我也辛苦。Emm。。大致上就这样啦，祈求世界平安，不要有那么多心理变态的人作怪，世界与国家经济方面希望会好点，别让贫富之间的距离变得太大，让所有人有份稳定的工作、稳定的收入，生活开开心心，犯罪率减少，那些贪污的家伙倒台＋坐牢打鞭。

最近开始迷上了调酒这方面的技术，２０１０年里打算弄个调酒杯来试试看稍微有点挑战性的调酒技术，希望不会半途而废，明天的家庭式party别有什么问题，让我有个顺顺利利的年份，２０１０麻烦合作合作，谢谢。

Common Sense

2009-12-31T14:53:00.005+08:00

The best CPR ever~

There is something in this world call " COMMON SENSE". Sometimes I really wonder what the hell is wrong with certain type of people, they are very educated, held high position in their workplace, but don't have the very simple thing call " common sense".

They drop by your place without prior notice nor contact us before hand as if I am so free that I can sit at home 24/7 just to wait for any unexpected guest visits; or the best part is they'll brag to third parties about their plan to drop by my place BUT WILL NEVER CONTACT ME DIRECTLY. Hello! Do you expect me to know every single thing you told others and prepare for your arrival? Or do you expect me to sit at home 24/7 just to wait for your arrival??! Can't you just give me a call or at least drop an email a day or two before you drop by so that I can arrange my schedule?? Or worse still, they came to your place, behave as if this is their own house, go up the stairs and into your bedroom then sit on your bed WTF?! I don't know what other people take it but to me BEDROOM IS SOMEWHERE PRIVATE AND I PERSONALLY DON'T LIKE THE IDEA OF OUTSIDERS SITTING ON MY BED, GO THROUGH ALL MY STUFFS AS IF THOSE ARE ITEMS ON DISPLAY SHELVES IN SUPERMARKET!
MY PLACE IS NOT A FRIGGING HOTEL SO PLEASE SAVE SOME HONOUR FOR YOURSELF OR AT LEAST HAVE SOME CONSIDERATION FOR OTHERS CAN?!

There also another type of people who will never ever behave themselves properly despite being so well educated with a very good income. Someone from my family is doing them a favor, A FAVOR IS NOT AN OBLIGATION, obviously they have to prepare some documents and send over to the someone in my family in order to get things done. Since then, they decided to email the copy of document to me, BUT WILL NEVER EVER INFORM ME DIRECTLY OR AT LEAST LET THE PERSON WHO IS DOING A FAVOR FOR THEM TO KNOW WHICH EMAIL THEY SENT TO. Hello~ What is wrong with you?? People help you to do something out of the kindness in his or her heart, can't you think of his or her convenient and save all the trouble by just telling to which email you sent to but not keeping us to guess and purposely check all the emails??! You have things to do I also have things to do! Don't expect me or any of my family members to take all the troubles for you!

TMD~

Fuck

2009-12-23T00:00:00.004+08:00

Feel like a fucking doll.

Thought I am lucky to get away from being a dutiful doll by leaving that place yet it is just the beginning of another fucked up life.

Lay people laid their eyes on my lifestyle, deep in their heart hoping that someday somehow they will get to have a life like mine; but they never know how fucked up it is to have a life like this, a screwed up one indeed.

I feel like a bird caged in this huge mansion, or shall I say a prisoner, a tool to others' ambitions?
Yes, life is a fucking bitch, so screw it.

I thought I found my happiness, my salvation, my freedom, the feeling of life, but I was wrong. It is just a different prison with the same old life.

I can no longer cry for I had forgot how it is to be a human.

Bad name for a clinic

2009-12-18T23:18:00.001+08:00

Lucky it's not a tution center..

What I have been up to...

2009-12-11T22:02:00.004+08:00

Had been working like a dog lately, basically I spend most of the time in office and travelling ( thx to traffic jam!). Start to feel the stress now, I wonder how did I manage to handle so many activities and spent most of the time running all sorts of activities, functions, duties...etc during high school days without the need for a break. I miss those days!! *sob*

Three years down the road, everything changed. Guess nobody would ever expect to end up in such a state where you once held the glory and authority over anything and almost everything. I'm still confused, fear never left me, not even a second; everywhere I go whatever I do, deep down inside there'll always be a voice telling me to stop it and stay where you are and be what you were. I'm not the type of person who can go anywhere, joke around and get away with it. For some strange reasons ( I never knew why) my presence always inspired fear, not only to myself but people around.

Was in Cold Storage Solaris last weekend to cover an event and sales. Nice place, nice food and most importantly, people there are quite nice compared to other places/ outlets. I never knew I would meet people who share the same idea and same point of view towards this world. Customers treat everybody ( be it a random strangers or the staff) equally, the form of respect and manners for every single individual can hardly be seen in most of my social circles, I wonder why. Though I was there to cover the launch and sales of a over-priced product, people there surprised me with their positive attitude. When the you approached the customers, they would always spare that 2 to 3 minutes to listen to your explanation, made enquiries on the product, try 1 if they are interested or take a brochure if they are not, share some other information/ knowledge's which they read/ learnt somewhere else and ( from what I notice) will always end the interactions with a smile and some encouraging words. How often do we reject any form of approach from promoters in supermarket without a sincere smile and the word " Thank you"? or giving them a chance to share their knowledge on certain products? What more some encouraging words ( i.e. " it's a very good/ interesting presentation", " keep it up") even though you don't intend to buy the product? =/

Left the office job and joining the event and sales team. Well, meeting people is a dreadful task, but I enjoy the working environment and the challenges in sales as well as the exposure. =D Well, guess that's a good start for a new life and it's time to wave bye bye to my depressive state.

Off to bed now, tomorrow will be my day in Mont Kiara, wish me luck.

I Love You, so Goodbye and RIP ='(

2009-12-07T21:29:00.004+08:00

28 November 2009
You left moments after I reach home. You never know how much I miss you since I left for my hometown despite knowing the fact that you might leave anytime. I never knew you would wait for my return, I'm sorry for I had failed you. I'm not a responsible owner nor a faithful friend to you, I shouldn't have left you here.

You waited for me, just to say goodbye. You never know how hurtful it is to have your dead body lying at the corner of your house, both your little hands holding the Sunflower Seed I gave you minutes ago before you gave up your very last breath. I'm home, I came home Piggy, but you left silently. I wanted to tell you how much I adore you but it's too late. I wanted to tell you how much I miss the days with you around, with you listening to my rants and entertained me with your silly behaviours.

It's all too late now, I love you Piggy, so goodbye and rest in peace.

Brokenback Monsters

2009-12-02T15:56:00.004+08:00

Twilight fans don't screw me.

Downloaded + watched the first Twilight movie, fall asleep halfway tru, ain't my cuppa' tea.

很搞不懂为什么会有那么多人喜欢看这种电影。长得像小白脸的男主角让人看了都不开胃，加上他那副（好象在厕所里肚子痛却闹便秘）的样子还真的让我吃不下晚餐。=S

然后那个皮肤较黑的家伙给我的第一个印象就是长得像scooby doo =.=|||*ok ok，不算完全像，但那个鼻子就足以让人联想到scooby-doo了* 加上那个演戏演到像木头那样的女主角，美不美我就不讲啦，毕竟每个人的审美观都不同，不过很高不明白为什么导演一直把镜头focus在她和那个便秘佬的脸部，本来就已经够沉闷、反胃了的一部戏- 看到那两个生物在镜头面前的那种表情- 便秘+木头，让我简直就想把那两个家伙打成猪头饼，结果看不到一半就关掉了。

还是喜欢朋友send来的这个恶搞poster，不知道这部戏的导演和作者会不会考虑把剧情打入同性恋和心理艺术的市场，来一个brokenback monsters来凑合下之前得奖的短背山咧？XP

GRRRR~

2009-12-01T23:58:00.003+08:00

Garage sales, Bookfairs, Discounts...
ARGGHH!!! Why on earth would those damn bookstores torture me like this?!!

I'm fucking broke every end of the year and they have sales going on?!

Grrrrrr~ I wanna goooooooo!!!! I have lotsa books wanna buyyyyyyy!!! ='(

oh god plz stop the rain and let cash fall from the skyyyy!!!!

I need money, I wanna buy bookssssssssssssssss!

Take me home, will you?

2009-11-26T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hey all, still remember Specky??

Here's a brief intro' for those who don't. I bought him from a petshop near my college when I was there to collect some food ordered. He was among his siblings who were ( supposely) put to death using a very cruel way - by pouring boiling hot water on them while all of them are still alive. Reason given by that shop's owner was Specky ( and his siblings) had been there for more than two months and nobody would buy them for the following reasons:

a) They no longer look cute enough to charm humans.
b) They ( especially Specky) have fur which made them look like rats ( longkang tikus), thus nobody would want to spend money on rats.

When I first met him, he was shivering at a corner of the dirty storage box ( which they were placed in while waiting for their execution) due to mal-nutrition and fur lossdue to skin infection. Well, I couldn't afford to buy all of them nor can keep that much of hamsters at home at the moment. However, when I went back to the same shop the following day, I ws informed that I was too late for the rest of them.

Here's Specky after being with me for 5 weeks, he's getting better and no longer suffer from skin infection, and I'ld be glad to find him a new home with kind and caring owner. I'll be giving him up without any adoption fees nor claiming his medical bill from the new owner, with the following conditions:

Love, care and respect Specky as an individual ( don't forget they have feelings too!).
Never leave it roaming around in the house unattended to avoid unnecesary threat to his safety nor feed him to your other pets ( i.e. Snake, cat, dog...etc)
Never house him with another hamster, REMEMBER: Syrian Hamster is solitary and would never enjoy having another hamster in its own territory!
Update me from time to time on Specky's progress, I would be glad to know how's he going with his new home.
PLEASE! Don't approach me if you can't be commited in providing Specky a home for coming 2 to 3 years ( Normal Syrian hamster can live up to 3 years!).
Lastly, never ever give him low quality food or processed human food ( i.e.Chocolate, biscuit, chewing gum...etc),those stuffs are very harmful to hamsters' health.

Here's Specky's profile:

Name: Specky ( named so because he has a pair of white- frame- spectacle, but you may rename it) =D
Breed: Syrian Hamter
Age: Around 4 months old
Gender: Male
Main Diet/Food ( Brand): Harry Hamster ( without sunflower seeds and groundnuts)
Treats: Sunflower Seed and Groundnuts ( maximum 3 per day), Carrot/Celery/Apple/Pear
SUPPLEMENT:-
- Protein Source: Egg White, Meal worm ( twice a week)
- Calcium Source: Calcium Block for small animal ( prescribed by local vet)
- Others: Multivitamin Drip twice a week ( prescribed by local vet)
* Supplements may not be necessary all the time.
Toilet Training: Yes
Bedding ( Brand): Chipsi Classic

For those kind-hearted Samaritan who can provide a loving home for Specky, do please contact me at dukenikkon(@)gmail(dot)com or drop a comment in this post and I shall attend to you personally. I would really appreciate if you can at least do some basic research on how to care for hamster/ or have some basic knowledge before contacting me. =)

Everyone deserve a chance.

Will you take me home??

恶心的书

2009-11-26T15:00:00.004+08:00

突然有点后悔这个时候还坚持要拿英文文学，越读就越觉得自己好像找到了另一个自己。以前我曾经讲过每个人的心里都有一只野兽，分别在于你控制它还是它控制你。

第一次接触这本书的时候实在一年前，在班上读了第一个Act就觉得这本书非常的变态，结果那天下午的午餐就吃不下了。本来以为只是我个人觉得很恶心，很变态的一本书，但后来才发现原来很多文学系的讲师也给了同样的评语" It's very gross!"。但多读几次就发现原来当初所谓的“恶心”并不是因为作者所写的一切而让人感到恶心，而是一直以来人类观点左右了本身的看法；就好比古代的人认为婚前性行为是罪恶的、恶心的、不可被接受的，但对现在的人婚前性行为已经不是什么新鲜事。

随着时代的进步和改变，人类本身虽然受到更多的教育和知识，但是有一样东西是完全不会改变的-人的欲望。很多时候现实中每个人都显得彬彬有礼、有文化，这一切主要都是人类本身自我限制自己（道德观念），但在这本书里作者运用了世界第二大战结束后的一段时间里，人人都因为战争而失去了希望，“没有过去可以留恋，没有将来可以期待，就只能有现在的惨状”导致原有的道德观念都开始放弃，结果就出现了心理压欲很久了的暴力、乱伦甚至把自己的亲人（自愿性的）推入火坑，成为一名妓女，而做丈夫的对自己妻子成为妓女的事情并不感到愤怒、震惊反而顺其自然般的等待。

作者运用了人性作为整个故事的发展元素，也展现了人性最黑暗的一面。虽然读起来会让人感到震惊、愤怒、恶心，但整体上也让我们有所思考的空间-人，没有了道德观念的约束以后，可以做出什么让人感到更震惊的事情？

倚老卖老还真的是他妈的鸡蛋糕！

2009-11-24T12:05:00.004+08:00

小学的时候很讨厌写作文，尤其是华语作文。其实（以前）我喜欢写作，只是那时候的老师连我要写什么、该写什么甚至是每一段的内容都要跟着她/他的意思和心目中认为理想的方式去写，结果从那时候开始我一见到作文心里就会给老师一个“去你妈的！”。

本来以为上了中学就可以避开华语作文这个东西，结果现实还是残酷的，不但逼不了还必须对着这种东西五年！@_@* 真是没阴功~*不过那时候的华语老师还算好，没怎么刻意去限制我该写什么不该写什么（因为她知道从一开始我就非常抗拒被人限制发展空间，主要原因还是我那时候真的极度讨厌华语这个科目，有交功课给她已经算好了），只是在我把文章交上去以后才慢慢的批改，然后加上评语，往往拿回作品的时候都是红色字眼。

现在我才发现到原来以前老师在我写作的控制欲并不是职业病，而是大部分传统的华人思想问题。老一辈的总认为自己经验多，年轻一辈的做什么都是不对的，什么都要管，处处都要年轻得跟着老一辈的步伐，就好像母鸡带小鸡那样一步一步的走，然后当年轻一辈的最着时间的流逝变老了，有了下一代也是用同样的方法来教育下一代，也是却没想到他们用的方法并不能符合时代的变化和进步。老人，人生经验多并不代表一定对到完，更不代表你们什么都会；要年轻一辈的尊敬你们就先改变你们的思想，愿意接受批评和意见，这样才能够让我们心服口服而不是一直以那句“我吃的盐比你们吃的饭还要多！见过的世面比你们还要久。。。”（老家伙，你知不知道现在的科技每一分每一秒都在进步？知道什么叫做活到老学到老吗？）

人家买新电脑，你要插手；人家装新的电眼，你要管；人家换新手机，你也要给一份意见。如果说那方面是你的强项或者你有经验可以指导技术上的问题，那么很欢迎你要给予批评，但问题就在于你连电脑怎么操作、电眼是什么、手机的基本功能都不会用却要来给一大堆有的没的意见，walao~ Uncle/ Aunty，你不会，问一问人家就会很乐意的与你分享知识，但是你不会却要在那里指挥技术人员该怎么做、做些什么，你不觉得羞死人的吗？？

老东西，很多时候年轻一辈的在人生经验方面需要你们的指导，但那并不表示你们什么都会、什么都可以管、什么都可以插手，要知道我们会的你们未必会，不是因为你们没有机会去学（以前没钱去学校学的借口已经不是借口了！）而是你们因为面子的关系不愿意去学！我在A Level的班上就有遇过好几位爷爷/奶奶级的同学，年纪最轻的都已经超过60了，他们不但会操作电脑、玩手机，连上网打game都会。老，不是大完，学问并不一定得去学校上课才可以学会的；老人家态度上的问题还真的很欠揍，搞不好哪天我的忍耐力被他们攻破了的时候还真的会一巴掌送过去给他们飞天。真是他妈的鸡蛋糕~

Women

2009-11-23T22:39:00.003+08:00

Never trust anything that bleed for 5 days and doesn't die,

and never ever offend that thing unless you wanna die.

*sigh*

Why on earth would people choose to provoke me at the wrong time?
As for the punishment I ordered, serve you right.

Smiles? Like I care~

2009-11-23T17:07:00.003+08:00

Smiles,
Hypocrites' smiles.
Yes, people are smiling as I walk down the street,
somewhere in their heart they're watching, waiting;
They are waiting for something,
waiting for the downfall,
for the failure and disgrace.
Yet they keep on to the show,
the very same show with the very same SMILES.
They sing praises and flatter others,
they keep the same SMILES on their faces,
the ugly SMILES with wonderful words uttered from the very same mouths.
Guess they never know that we knew.
Or they knew we know,
and the games continue;
They are waiting...
patiently. Eyeing every single opportunity to grab hold of anything,
anything worth the value to put on the show,
with that very same SMILES;
Hypocrites.
Hah! Like I care~
Family? SHAME ON YOU!

冷~

2009-11-20T22:03:00.003+08:00

最近天气冷到鬼样，

心情也冷到鬼样，

相信迟早我的样子也会像鬼那样；

不知道到时候贞子不小心遇见我的话会不会心里产生自卑感然后变成心里不平衡干脆躲在电视机里不出来吓人了？

还是德古拉伯爵见到我以后也会被吓到当场爆毙结果从此以后都没有吸血鬼出来杀人的传说？

唉~

考完试了，终于放假了，可是一点兴奋的感觉也没有；反而感到很疲累，脑袋突然完全放松的感觉一点都不好。

将冷的天气加上疲惫的感觉=冬眠的开始？

不晓得冬眠能不能够消除掉白发和皱纹的问题？

呵呵呵，好期待明天和朋友去看的Planet 51 ^^

Life's a bitch, so TAKE THAT!

2009-11-20T05:25:00.006+08:00

You think it's fun to impersonate others and start spreading rumours around and nobody will find out the truth?

It's not the end yet, but the beginning of a new game. You won't get away that easily, just the matter of time.

Never ever push my limit, because you never know what I can do and what I will do.
I may be stupid, but that doesn't mean you can take advantage of me.

Take that bitch!

as I said, it's just the beginning

and we shall meet again.

life sucks and you die

真傻婆一个

心机

冷血

药罐

二手衣裤。。

痛

还是海外的月亮比较远

Empty space for my empty soul

太空船

结扎

倒数的日子。。

更多的阴谋。。

珍惜

生活

Revenge

法律援助基金會

back to square one

小名？

=(

凶手

她走了

小气

新？

十二月[中]

十二月

脑残的家伙说脑残的话

A little from me, a little from her

两个星期里。。

思念

最近。。

幸福

黑

Musing

榴莲

三更半夜不睡觉出来shoot人

榴莲

回家

The world choose to turn its back to me, then let me turn the world upside down!

Idiotic idiots.

Blood Donation Campaign in Giant Kinrara, Puchong

失落的变态

请尊重我个人私隐和决定！

国家很穷，人民很穷，我也很穷。。。

红酒vs心情

Of life [Part 2]

怪懒aunty [Part 1]

因为教师节

网络不要写人，尤其是怪懒的人

笑一笑

Of life

好事来的。

虫会进化成什么？？ 答案：虾 =.="

Words

美好的时刻，因为你

Emotion rollercoaster

怀孕了

感想

Jalan Jalan Cari Buku 1

被tag了

The word before F

Efficiency is doing things right, effectiveness is doing the right things.

友情与信任

下一步该怎么做？

Fading

虫的其中一个星期六

短期间没什么事情都不会上来写了

Things I had been doing...

Getting rid of A Level Books! Contact me

Welcome to HELL

I'm not a SAINT

Haiti need us

虚脱的感觉，除了无奈还是无奈。。。

Weird me

2010 you better not be a bitch or I shall bitch-slap you!

Common Sense

Fuck

Bad name for a clinic

What I have been up to...

I Love You, so Goodbye and RIP ='(

虫会进化成什么？？答案：虾 =.="